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My first POLOROID :)

2011-04-02T07:44:00.000-07:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

been some time...

2011-03-25T00:19:00.001-07:00

Airport :)

2011-03-05T23:07:00.000-08:00

I'm still surviving

2011-03-04T06:54:00.000-08:00

Wanted to do some queer poses but this one is a failed attempt. -_-
This looks better but yeah......

Okayyy i succeeded. :)

Right.....One week of attachment down. Two more to go, i can't wait for it to end. Not that i don't enjoy my time there but really, it's so tiring. I love my patients a lot, it's the work that i dread but somehow i enjoy some of it. I'm contradicting myself but well, i can't seem to think striaght now as i'm so tired.

So many things happened over these few days during attachment. I won't specify. Some are funny but some are just...... -_- Kk, forget it.

Did i forget to mention that the other we met XR. Omg, i am like so happy la. It's been so long since i last met her.

Random much

2011-02-04T22:43:00.000-08:00

My Baby Kylie Daniella Marsh

Okay look, i haven't got anything to mention here. Over the past few days i have been bored. Even though it is CNY, i'm still so bored. First things first, we don't have much relatives so i guess all the visitings wouldn't be so long. Secondly, my closest aunty isn't going for any of the vistings which only leaves our family with the not-so-close aunties/uncles. (This sucks.)

However, we went for reunion dinner, perhaps i'd already mention this part in previous posts, but no one will ever know how elated i actually am. You might have already guessed it by now, we did have some ongoing problems with my grams but i guess everything is settled now. I know that if mummy ever reads this site/ or rather this post, i'll be dead because she doesn't like 'personal' stuff to be here. But i'll not really go into personal details, really. I'm just so happy that i could hug my grand parents again. My great-grandma too. I miss them so bad. Like really bad if u know what i mean. Words can never describe how i feel at that instance but all i can say is that i felt good, alive again. (I wasn't dead literally but technically, i was).

My cousins, they changed so much. That day, our bond still felt so strong even up till now. So many months, coming to about perhaps a year now, and we still bond so well. Like a perfect fit/ match, whatever u call it. Only thing changed was the height of my first cousin, Bryan cheng jia wei. He was at a 'wow' height, seriously. He was taller than me! Awesome! :) Though i know i'm not very tall, but for a girl to be at 1.65/1.66 is considered tall ya. He was a whooping 1.7, i think. :D Oh well, those days when i used to be the tallest, is now officially gone. I can never feel on high again with the people who surrounds me.

2011-02-02T05:42:00.000-08:00

updates

2010-08-29T06:10:00.000-07:00

Pics!

2010-06-02T06:46:00.000-07:00

Photo updates! ( loads of them)

2010-05-30T03:57:00.000-07:00

This are pictures taken when i had my swollen eyes. :(

2pm/Dbsk

2010-03-05T05:17:00.000-08:00

Just a little something something to liven up this place. It's been sometime since i updated. :)

: The above is 2pm.( famous Korean band so far)

: ok and this is my scret addiction- DBSK. They are so pro in all the moves and singing. LOve them loads. :) However, this video is a parody version. I thought the lyrics was pretty funny and interesting and so this video is up here. Do enjoy :)

Photos..(natural)

2010-02-19T04:19:00.000-08:00

The punch card :)

Second day of work..(taken during free time)

The place whwere the boss work at

The cash register...old fashion!

The cakes made by the boss :P

Okay all this photos supposedly is in my phone. I had to upload it to another blogging site or my MB is gonna be used up. So yeah.there are more to go but i'm a lil lazy to uplaod the rest today. So until then..it'll be like this.

Last min decision

2010-02-15T04:29:00.000-08:00

Ok...i know it's been a pretty long time since i did an update. Well, here goes. Before i start anything, i would like to say that i'll be converting this site to a pictures place because i heard that FB is gonna charge ppl whenever they log onto their account. Apparently, i placed some really beautiful photos on FB and would really dread it if i have to pay a cent everytime i log into that account of mine. However, all is not confirm yet so just take it easy. Well, this only serves as a reminder for ppl who has photos on FB. So yeah....i'm currenly blogging on another site : www.da-internet-diaries.tumblr.com

It's a great place to blog and yes, i've only just begun, hence the miserly post on tumblr.com. Hahahaha, ok anyways i'll upload photos over here so do check it out. ^^

My new addiction

2010-01-26T05:01:00.000-08:00

These days i seriously have no idea how and when i started to like Kpop! Dang it, i think i got influenced by Christal...But hell, i'm totally loving it...It's really serious madness with them moving and swaying their bodies from side to side.

So today, i went to meet Christal while Hwee li pulled out coz she had to go somewhere else. We went to have our lunch at Top Peak. (apparently tht's what they called it). The we took a slow walk back to Christal's crib and just chilled there. She taught me how to use the magical gadgets on Paint.net. Thanks once again. Hhahahaha.....I like jae jung, something ming...and tht taiwan guy. Christal knows!!! Hahahaha.... :)

The weird connections

2010-01-23T04:58:00.001-08:00

The three sister's forever! hahaha..i like this photo, but half my face's gone!

Ok this isn't really the picture of the day. But i find it rather natural. I love the lightings in Hwee li's house. It was my pleasure to have drop by her house. Today was considered a rather fruitful day for me. As i mentioned earlier, going over to Hwee li's house was a blast. They played a couple of computer games while i signed into my MSN acc. Was chatting with tin tin and there goes Hwee li and tin tin again. As per usual, they will always enter a fight and i fight it rather amusing. Can u imagine? They aren't even fighting face-to-face man. But still, they managed to pull of a great and victorious fight! Hhahahaa, the scene was just epic! At the very least, i enjoyed it! Anyways, i was so friggin obsessed with the full lengh mirror.(actually, i love all kinds of mirror)...But this...was just delusional for me. I posed for so many pics..of my own. More pictures at FB.

------Guarded-------

2010-01-22T02:50:00.000-08:00

Like a pure, innocent human, being guarded by our very own arch-angel. Is it really true that no matter what happens, they will be there to guard us? Even if we were to fall deep into trouble...? Who are the ones that actually act as our guardian angels then? Our family members, friends or ppl whom we don't really associate with? But going with the third option somehow is a little tough because how can anyhow be acting as an angel when we haven't been associating with often. On the other hand, this sometime is taken into consideration when it comes to true love. However, i don't really believe in true love. It's just stupid to think that any love wouldn't wither in the coming days. Love is nvr true although it may appear to be true on the surface. It is just a hurtful thing that makes you take a gamble. The outcome? Is all up to fate. So, deriving from all these facts, i reckon that a true arch-angel is sent from above. Not someone close to us. (not that i know of anyway).

xoxo CheryLN

Bk's party!

2010-01-17T05:49:00.000-08:00

>The 4 ladies<

So yesterday we went for BK's party and damn the food was great! Haha, we enjoyed loads. The thing is, finally chris and me got to go out with marilyn and hwee li to this kind of events. It sure was a great thing.....So the day started out by me meeting christal frist. However, her clock didn't ring and so i went on to meet Hwee li aand marilyn first. But when i reached WS, received a text message from HL that she had to go back home and get something while marilyn was gonna come at 3! I couldn't believe that as i was already there! Literally at WS...so anyways, the two girls were the ones who were pulling my leg with a joke!!! Bleah, bleah, bleah..shiat! I actually got punked real hard by them! So moving on...the day passed by with marilyn, HL and i eating lunch..(ok excluding me, i ate earlier). However, chris was still taking the bus and so we decided to walk around WS and then trained all the way to TM to get Bk's present. We finally met chris and she kept apologising..lol! Hhahaha, walked around Isetan,popular,BHG and many other shops till i had friggin blisters again. Finally we found a present of our choice. Pretty artistic like i said, however HL was damn shy to pass it to BK. So in the end i did.Take a look:

There the big boobies!

Alright, then we left early and i'm sorry BK...coz me and the girls had something planned! So we walked all the way back to my house and it took like what? 45 mins? Yeah around there and once we reached my house, we played crazy games like truth or dare. It was crazy man! So many questions were asked! When i say questions, i meant crazy,bonkers questions! Hahaha, had a great laugh and it's been some time since we did gather like tht. I enjoyed!

Dined at TM

2010-01-15T03:28:00.001-08:00

Keeping track of my life. I went to TM today with daddy and nicks coz mummy went out with aunty wendy... basically went there to have dinner. Walked around for quite a bit and went to popular in search of a really good powerful earphones. Too bad, i didn't really find something of my choice. Well, it pretty much sums up my evening. In addition, there were many weirdos there. Some sitting by the benches, some alongside the walk-way stones and many more near the MRT station. Pathetic man! They think they look so cool, however i shall not say anything. It's their life. Sometimes, i feel that these ppl are very confident of how they look and i take my hat off for them. Although this shouldn't be the way to dress, but even being exotically dressed up, they still put their heads up high. It's indeed the saying, "they talk the talk, they too walk the walk". They aren't proud ppl but just ppl with extremely high confidence level. I don't know why but somehow this confidence attracts me in a weird way. Some ppl tell me that i should have more confidence in myself because i look good. But i don't know why i'm unable to. However, there are some ppl who thinks i am confident and this just allowes me to think that i am confident yet not confident enough... i really don't know how to put this feelings into words. I try my very best to boost my confidence level but there are still some days when it all goes down again.(really not good). So sometimes, i just wish that i was these really weird ppl on the streets who are friggin confident of how they look. At the very least, my sister always talks to me abt confidence and now i'm starting to have some of it....let's hope i'll inprove

Over the edge

2010-01-14T03:22:00.001-08:00

Okay, from Monday to Wednesday and still no postings are done. Well, sometimes i just feel like letting this blog R.I.P. However i can't. Because this is the only space i vent my frustrations or cry out to (though not literally). I seriously need to keep updates of my life. Well, so far, my life is good. The only freaking thing is that i need more things (like a job) to fill out the rest of my days! So yesterday Chris and me went to Ngee Ann to take a look (were supposed to play pool with friends at e!hub..shiat). Took a train as i totally forgot that there was a shuttle service available and landed at Clememti. Took a bus and we ended up at SIM university!?!? Like wtf sia? It was a bloody uni that was so friggin quiet and no wonder ppl were staring at us like we had something on our faces. (Now i'm aware!). Very stupid, but then after realising it was a uni, we decided to walk around and then made our way to the the polytechnic just beside it. (thank god Chris had a map)....The poly was filled with many applicants and it seriously, it was a relieve to see em' there. A girl approached us and talked us through the courses..(very amiable for someone her age). It was not really an fruitful trip for me but i enjoyed it all the way la. Christal, Christal!@ How blur and cute can u get eh? ....During our trip there...the most embarrassing thing happened! The train kinda went pass SP and Christal wanting to tell me abt it, mouthed "singapore poly" to me and yes..i DID nod! However i think she hadn't seen it and so with her ear phones attached, she shouted a "EH, SINGAPORE POLY LEH!"( the caps lock is to show the exertion, so precisely used in her tone when telling me this already obvious information! Hahahaha LOL!) It did indeed caught everyone's attention and some were giggling! Well..my face flushed again and she felt so PS at that time. Sucha cutie! ^^

The journey back was pretty intersting i'd say. Saw this couple kissing and hugging like theres no tmr...and the girl is abt 1.7++ while i'd safely say that her BF is a 1.5++? Like wth? Seriously....everyone was looking! First things first, they SHOULD get a room man. It was plain disgusting!
---------------------------------------------Chapter closed-------------------------------------

Onto the next chapter. Have u guys ever had friends who are beyond description? Well, my sis has and there is a whole lot of story for telling. I didn't wanna step into it, but well, this thing between them just doesn't cease.

A fcking Bitch + A fcking Bas3rd (a couple) = A fcking disastrous relationship...
Can't they see it? The whole picture is so damn freaking clear! Just friggin break up la? That Bitch still wanna "talk" to my sister and act good...Like wtf? Back off man, my sis is already stoping everything so why step on her again? ...Man, i so have to thank god for the friends i chose! ^^

Results!

2010-01-11T03:55:00.000-08:00

I took my results and hey, not bad. At least that's what i think. I am proud of myself. Lucky thing i managed to get myself into a poly. But hey, who knows, i might join the army! I mean, after reading the JAE book, i found the airforce and navy rather interesting. Not bad at all. I think i might be going there/poly... well i still have till friday to decide so i'll see how it goes. Anyways, after getting my results, i went home first. However i'm so sorry that i hadn't stayed back with my friends. Sorry, xr,i hope u r fine. U will be. I'm always here for you, u know that.

So....tht'd be all for now. I'm so beat and to celebrate everything, dad's gonna bring us to dine at Sakura tmr...love's it soo much!!! ^^

My secret

2010-01-06T06:05:00.000-08:00

I finally cracked. My secret was out. My mother got a straight answer from me. I was bashful at the time. I thought i could i almost pass out from telling my mother the "secret". My mother on the other hand was disappointed that i hadn't confide in her about my safely kept secret. On learning that i had somehow fallen for this guy, she asked me why i hadn't told him. How could i have done it? I didn't know what the right feeling was and i definitely didn't wanna get hurt. Mummy is totally out of her sanity, she claimed that if she knew that i had liked him, she would've done something! I love her craziness but it was not me to confess my inner most feelings for the opposite sex. It just wasn't gonna happen, NO, noway! And then she told me that if i hadn't tried to at least tell him , it would be getting me nowhere. I know that very well, but i'm just too shy. Beyond shy if you can even imagine. It was my secret and only for me to know. However, i let it out to my sister and some of my friends. During that point, i only claimed that "he" was a passing crush. Howvever, his looks are more than just a passing crush can hold. Those features aligned so well on his face and with every thought about him, it just burns me deep to the bone, making me weak each time. Moreover, he already has his special someone and i wasn't keen on breaking up their relationship. It just all happened to fast, i know i shouldn't have added him. Before adding him, he was still single and when i've done so, he's attached. Then it came to a point where i wanted to ask him a question but screwed up and so i had to write on his wall. Writting on his wall was a F**Ked up idea coz he was now attached to blah blah blah(a name appeared at this point!) I was like -_-. I mean it seemed so much better when i hadn't even added him and seeing his status being single was like a great feeling. And then mummy said "it's only a gf not even wife, can break up what?!?!" I was stupidified and flabbergasted at her expression. She was friggin cool with everything. It seemed surreal but i'm glad that i told her everything. I'm so sorry for not telling her before. I promise i'll tell her everything and when i mean everything, i mean everything! U r the best mum!!! Thank you for supporting me...LOL..:D

Emotionally connected

2010-01-05T04:16:00.000-08:00

Many days have passed by and i somehow feel better from the mess of feelings i had last few days. It has gotten me thinking abt many things during my time in bed. Although i'm lying on a piece of soft material, those thoughts still failed to vanish. I was so afraid and stressed up only to realise that i had to have a heart-to-heart conversation with my dearest sister tht really helped a lot. She made me realise that things were gonna be fine in the end. In any aspect, my family members will always be there to support me. I shouldn't think too much and allow it to harbour unnecessary thoughts. Like what my parents always say, "what's yours will always be yours". I think for now, imma go with the flow. Stop thinking of things that can barely happen. Yes i admit that it was my mistake for not thinking of my future when i was younger. But now, i reckon there's nothing i can do but just wait. I have no idea where i'll be going( coz i haven't even gotten the results), and this really kills me inside. Every night is just nightmarish for me. I can hardly close my eyes and fall into deep sleep right away. Thinking of my sister going to sch in the morning and me? Just staying at home( doing some cleaning if not go out), just really isn't helping a single bit. How i miss sch too.(i cannot believe i'm saying this, but yeah)....

How time flies....-_- Well, at least i decided on something and imma stay faithful to this decision. What can i say huh? I decided that i wanna stay single till....(i decide on the age for myself). Just chilling out with friends will be the most appropriate decision so far. However HE has somehow stolen part of my heart and i don't know how it happened. It's so scary to know that u have maybe fallen for someone and the only thing u wanna do right now is try and keep it to yourself/under wraps. (i don't know what u call it, but imma call it tht for now). However, it always pretty much messes up! Things just start to linger towards his direction once again and that is just bad. It's stupid to be thinking of someone when they barely even know u. So, imma stop right here and right now...(unless due to other circumstances, there might be a friendly progression, that i don't know....). But it's truly a stupid thing to be doing! At least i half recuperated from the "sight" of him. If he needs to show up again this year, i think i'll just have to put on a front and act like nothing's happened...I think i can do it somehow. Wish me luck!

Recap/summary of 09'

2010-01-03T04:24:00.000-08:00

09' had been a really crazy year for me. This was the year that i actually get to know my classmates to a deeper level. Yes it's true that i had a fight with one of my classmates that happens to be one of my bro's now....I really misunderstood him for everything and i'm glad that we cleared things out. I mean, this year was great...there was graduation ceremony, O's, Prom and other memorable celebrations and stupid stuff that me and my friends had done...It was just a fast experience. I was takingmy O's like last few months back and hey, guess what? It's over now and i'm currently waiting for the results. Well, theres nothing much i can do abt now, so i'll just have to accept what i'm given.(Note, *i did my best for every paper=no worries).

Well, a little summary of how i had spent my 31st night. Well, as per usual, i went for the party hosted by auntie ......(don't know her name,sorry). She's a really cool person(for her age). Met a few ppl there and glad to say that they were my age. Joy Gomes! She was there and we were chatting up on the past, really funny girl...Being introduced to her childhood friend - Deane Angelo, he's a fine dude! Great mucsels in between...very cute for a guy he's age. Plus, he's also very open. (at the most to comment, Aaron was having a hell of a time there!...sitting beside Deane! LOL)

Talking to uncle John really makes me natural for the least to say. I mean, i don't feel all comfortable when i'm with my real Eurasian family excluding uncle Alan's family,aunty Sylvia's family and aunty Frances's family.....this so includes my cousin from the eurasian side. Glen and Mark...C'mon man...they are like my cousin and yet we can't open our mouths respectively to chat? What is the world coming to? Ok forget it....just move on.

Anyway, last year was really a spectacular year for me and i enjoyed it. What my sister said today really woke me up? Am i ever going to stay in contact with my secondary sch friends?

As quoted from sis.." you're the type of girl that won't stay in contact with your old mates! It's just like, hey this is over so bb!"

Am i really like that? Well, the ans is yes...i am an asshole and i don't know why? Come to think of it, after returning what i have to to my respective friends...i'm afraid we might cut all contacts. That's not what i actually hope to see...but coming from a person like me, i think the chances are pretty high! But i promise i'll try not to be that asshole with friends. I mean, i already let my primary sch friends slip past like that, and i really don't want history to repeat itself.

Compliments of the season ppl!

2009-12-30T03:47:00.000-08:00

Going to Aunty France's house for compliments of the season was really a good choice. Her food was ok,not too bad.(nothing can beat dad and Aunty joyce's cooking though). We just chilled over at her place. Laughing and drinking has almost become part of our tradition during this season! Dunno why but i have been drinking some alcohol....some of which tasted great, some just not so good. Anyways, we played Bingo and i was totally on a winning streak when Nadia had to go spoil all the fun!~ She cursed me man? WTF? Totally pissed but i kept my cool. I mean, ever since she met her Bf, she has totally become a really different person. She acts in front of her Bf and try to be all sweet? Like c'mon aye, don't act?! However 'swuay' her mouth got, i still managed to share a portion of winnings with her sweet sweet Bf....lol...

On the other hand, i was credited by Aunty Frances on how great/beautiful i was beginning to look...she even said something that made me giggle man...."that time uncle Brian was looking for a model, too bad he missed u, or u'd be a fine model" LOL right? i was soooooooooo friggin happy la, coz i mean like, i've always wanted to be one...maybe i'll try out someday when i'm really free and daring.

Also, in her house, Iqmal was texting me. That bro uhh, i know i have his support man...I was telling him abt Kurt and he told me to go for it. I mean, yeah he's really cute and everything but i don't wanna go straight up! Still, he asked me to add him on FB coz he wanna see? Like omigosh???? What he gonna do man? But what he said really makes sense, rejection is part of life. However, i don't wanna face it now, so imma stop all feelings directed to him,but i did add him on FB. Well...tht'd be all.

xoxo
CheryLN

Christmas Eve/ Christmas Day

2009-12-26T04:55:00.000-08:00

Christmas Eve:

This Day was celebrated at Aunty Joyce's house. We were being invited earlier as she shares a really close relationship with Daddy and Mummy. We were the first to arrive (at 10+), waiting for Aunty Joyce to join us at the coffee table. While doing so, uncle Edmond kept us entertained with his good old jokes. It's just a plasure to be around them...:)

Finally,Aunty Joyce joined us and we talked about so many things. She decided to get the food ready for the guest. After waiting for quite sometime, Aunty Pat and her nephew(the guy whom i found cute) came. It happened so damn quick as they made their way into the house and came straight to our table to make Christmas greetings. It totally came as a shocker that left me no time to think but only to stand up(as a form of respect for others), and directly exchange shakes with Kurt! ^_* My hands at that point in time were friggin cold(always the bloody case,dunno y for whatever reason), but Kurt was like," Hi,Merry Christmas!"(shakes hand) and he's palms were damn big/warm(in other words, it felt good to have skin contact teehee)---*then smiled* (and of course we exchanged eye contact)!!!! And then i was like.."WTF? He's so cute!" ^^

To think that i actually had a close by distance with him. Hearing his voice just sets me into thinking what a beautiful, boy-man vocal he had.(the kind that trails off during a conversation,not the rough and deep kind). My cheeks once again flushed with red paint and i felt my heart almost skip a beat> Great feeling!

After which it really reached midnight and of course in our tradition, we had to move around the house and start greeting ppl. So i did and Aunty Pat was like totally grabbing me close to her(which kinda felt good--I"M NOT LES), and pecked me deep on my cheeks. I shaked everyone's hand(+ the pecks), only to realise that i had left Kurt out! Ouch that hurts(coz he was the one to extend his hand before(when he just arrived at the house) and now what i did was look away?!?!?!?!) What the hell was i thinking then? I mean, he's there y'know,just go shake his damn hands lah! He might even peck u on the cheeks?! F' sia...i should've just done it right then....Coz however my mum told us to do it, i reclined( i was shy to repeat the same gesture for a second time tht night, i guess). Mummy said that she managed to shake his hands and that he PECKED her on her cheeks!!!! Mmmm, i'm guessing i wasted a great chance of kissing him( on the cheeks) back. That night, my eyes were practically glancing pass him. And then he had to go turn his direction to me! He totally caught my eyes man! Dang, he wasn't supposed to see me looking at him.-_-" From the place where he sat, i turned my head once too and guess what? He was totally looking at me!! I quickly changed directions as to where i was looking in order to avoid further eye contact...(damn embarrassing)...But my Christmas Eve ended off on a really great note!

Christmas Day:

We went to church. Supposed to go for Papa and Mama's mass, apparently daddy needed to cook for the night, so we went for the 9.30 mass. In the afternoon, uncle Alan's family came over. Leann was sooooo cute...she could talk already! (kudos).Aaron is btw, getting more matrue by the day. That was good. I definitely was able to communicate with him! Finally, after so many years....he's really a cool dude. That's what they say, as ppl grow older, their thinking changes as well. (so true)

Afterwhich in the night, we went to Aunty olivia's friend's house. Spent our Christmas night listening to great musical(acoustic versions)performed by some very awesome guitar players! They had godly voices! It was nice to be around ppl and actually let your guard down-for once! Dranked orange juice which i had no idea that Gin was being added into(it was a splendid mix of juice and alcohol). After all this, i still settled for a wine which tasted so damn bitter. As it reached my throat, there was almost a burning sensation within. NOT GOOD! Drinking Heineken really wasn't sucha good idea afterall, it just made me even more tipsy!(WTH?)...However Christmas ended beautifully, though it didn't rain ~~much~~ or rather at all? I enjoyed myself loads! Hope it gets to Christmas once again! (with a little improvement?) NO....i wouldn't want Christmas any other way!...^_____^

xoxo
CheryL♥

Scary Movie...

2009-12-21T04:02:00.000-08:00

I passed the day by watching something i thought was scary. However, it turned out to not be sucha frightening movie afterall. If there was a rating, i'd give it a 2/5? The movie sucks like hell.. All props used were basically of a lousy standard. What to expect? It's a thai production! Not that i'm saying Thai stuff aren't good, but the show i've caught today really indeed brought the Thai repution down. On the other hand, the only thing that seems real to me was the "scene". (The disgusting scenes if u know what i mean...for some ppl though,it might serve as a different purpose altogether). For me, i don't really enjoy tht part,though it wasn't much of a big deal...i could see the girls bones protruding out from her back ...it was ewww! And i shan't go into details any further.

Seriously...i can't wait for Christamas

I wanna eat Aunty Joyce's food

I have done a couple of calculations...

~~Reborn hair~~

~~clothes~~

~~Genuine leather wallet~~

~~Elegant pair of shoes~~

~~Battery for my phone~~

~~enough $ to play BINGO~~

.......mmm, what else is on my list?.............

Library

2009-12-19T05:07:00.000-08:00

Went to the library today. Pretty much nth to post but still i have to mention the hot dude at the very location i was at. He's physique was like.."whoa!" Shit, how can there be such a handsome guy who looks great even when he wears glasses and have such a nice body? ~~Dark~~ tanned, tall and handsome!! Man, is this even possible??? But i'm guessing the ans is yes because that guy happens to be the ans to all my burning questions. Well, overall today was a great day. Not too bad. I got the books i wanted from the library, although i don't enjoy reading very much, i have a feeling this is all changing becoz of all the influence passed from my drearest baby Gin! Thanks to her, now whenever i'm bored, the first thing i do is whip out a book( of my choice), inject the ear piece into my ears and start reading loads. I can't believe i'm actually litterally turning into a book-reader!

As i was reading the chinese paper( to improve on my 2nd language), i found out this weird stuff. It stated that there are 2 kinds of beauty 1- the Eastern, 2- Western beauty. For the eastern beauty, all features from the eyes to the ears should run down to a 42% distance and from the eyes to the chin, it should be a mere 33%. on the other hand, for the western beauty, it should be a 46% and 36% distance respectively. All this percentages is really important for a REAL beauty to actually exist. It doesn't just state that if u have a cute face then u r a great beauty. The distance of these features are pretty important. So girls, do take note..go make some changes to the distance of your features if you really wanna be a great beauty!!!

(BOO)gey wonderland!..(BUgis shopping la)!!!

2009-12-17T03:46:00.000-08:00

Today mummy, Gin and i went Bugis for shopping. We found clothes for Christmas...so tht matter is settled man! Walked around for such a long time and i wasn't even the slightest bit tired! I'm such a superwomen! Duh? When it comes to shopping, all girls just wouldn't bump out..so i guess i'm just 1 of em'.

So i bought this black blouse that happens to have a part of the sleeve being open,like slits..my father and sis were such swines' tht the first time on seeing the blouse..they went " eh, they forgot to sew that part!?!?!?" WTH? LOL, this is part of the trend man. Also got our skinnies today. I really enjoyed the shopping part! I mean c'mon, i will always forever and ever love shopping! Nothing can stop me except for myself.....

Okay this chapter has closed. What i really wanna mentioned is abt my sis. She has been rather sad lately and it's because of this guy. I wouldn't call him an asshole or whatever, but he was the bloody one to steal my sister's heart away just like that! The way she explained everything me, it just sounds so surreal. I haven't even gone through that phase yet, not even when i'm already 17 yrs old! Gin said that it was a scary feeling along with a great sensation. Like u want it to be in repetition. Now that she only feels for him without his knowledge, she feels really hurt and sad. Why must she do this to herself. It has already hurt her to a certain extend. Yet another reason to prove that i will nvr get tangled up in such a love mess. It hurts to see her like that...Man, i've already done the best i can by giving her advice but the only way she can help herself is if she face up to it.

Surprise Surprise!!

2009-12-14T03:38:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a great day! The partey was awesome and we enjoyed ourselves. Initially, we were having seconds thoughts as to whether we should go for this party, but I'm glad we did or else we would have missed the good times.

So, back to the topic, Daddy,mummy, GIN and me were dressing up for the party. We were doing our hair and putting on make up(though it was a bit of a rush). Well, for a first timer in drawing an eye-liner for myself, i think it was superb. It was almost as though mummy did it for me, but c'mon...i must say that these skills are totally inherited. I wore a black dress as per usual,no wait...actually the whole family wore black except for mummy,she wore white and was like the flower among the thorns. She looked beautiful. Daddy, well he wore a black sleek pants and Gin and i were dressing Dad up. We got him the black piece where u wore inside a tux and he was so smart-looking thanks to GIN and I.(Again, credits taken by the J sistas'). As for Gin, she wore something really elegant and sophisticated. All i could say is that she was smoking hot for a girl her age!!!!! I won't comment on myself coz this is my blog and i do it for the sake of others...

Then we took bus 518 and it wasn't so crowded at first, however it got really cramped by the time we reached TM. The best part was when we stepped into the bus, everyone turned to look at us as though we weren't supposed to take bus...for an occasion like this. Gazes were casted on us and i pretty much hated it as per usual. However my sista and father seemed to enjoy their stares. I hate it most when it comes to the part where we needed to stand at the bus stop and there are tonnes of buses passing by then stopping. Coz that's the part when ppl in the bus starts to looks over! Man, why can't they keep glances to themselves? Why look? Dang!*&^%$#$@!

We then walked around orchid for a while as we were rather early for the partey. Daddy and Gin bought sunglasses. GIN, wanted to get this pair of glasses for Natasha, however mummy loved it and claimed it as her own. (There..Gin--u have to buy another!)...

Finally, we entered the party and waited,still waiting and waiting while daddy got us drinks at the bar-counter. Uncle Chris P(Daddy and Mummy's friend), was the bartender for the night! And his son is Kurt..(it's really his name, i just found out yesterday plus he's also 17!) Kurt was so well dressed and cute. He looked swave and he was so pleasing to the eyes. Before we could even enter, he was in-charge of taking down the names..and well, i was looking at him when he turned to look at me as well. I was shocked and it was weird coz i felt my face blushing(as per usual! Always happens.)

Auntie Brigit and her husband(whose name i don't know) sat with us. An Indian guy also by the name of blah blah bla(too long to remember) sat with us. Everyone kept quiet and waiting for the main character to appear. She finally came and we surprised her like we nvr did b4! She was soo happy and shocked that tears came flowing down where she hid them behind uncle Edmonds chest!(We all could still see it man! LOL)....It was a beautiful partey and many ppl turned up for it. On the other hand, Gin and Me were checking Kurt out and in the last part of the night, Gin got crazy coz she decided to take a picture with Kurt ...well i dared her to coz she started it!...However, she didn't have the chance coz he was with his other cousins and yes, it's pretty terrifying to go up to him okay? What if he rejects taking the shot? But i think he isn't so un-gentleman....Gin was sooooo sad and swear that she would get a picture with him on the 24th..lol. Can't wait man!...(NOTE: I might do it to, if only i had the GUTS!)

Pictures are on FB, here's the link: (http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=34366&id=1615910320&l=f382ca592f) ...do check em out! (i'll upload it on blog l8tr)

The Partey...

2009-12-12T04:36:00.000-08:00

The party was great. Everthing fell into place. Nothing was wrong and we enjoyed ourselves, though it only ended a few hours. However, i loved every minute of it. Keith was really, unexpectedly open for his age. That was a huge transformation for him though. Just last few months, i saw him and he weren't like tht. On the other hand, so was our cousins..Mark and Glen. It was kinda awkward, but Glen said "hi man" to me...and i was like shocked but still i answered him trying to not make myself look like a complete idiot. We had our pictures taken and i hope i look good...though i do..teehee...kidding.

ROBYN KIERA DE SOUZA!!!

2009-12-09T04:26:00.000-08:00

Robyn!!!

So last week i was supposed to attend Robyn's Christening...however i had to give it a miss coz daddy got a recall at his working place. Man, it was my loss for missing those "juicy" tighs...Looks at those? It's really enchanting i gotta say. Also, during the party, "kurt"(supposingly not his real name) was present. This was the guy i had waited for months to at least see him right in the face. But in the end i didn't managed to see him. Well, this coming Sunday, we are gonna celebrate Aunty Joyce's birthday and she hasn't any idea whatsoever. So it'll end up like a surprise partey for her. Hmmmmm, i really can't wait for it!!! Till then, i think still might be able to catch a glance of "kurt"(the fake name).....hehehe :) (such a joy to see him)

"Kurt"- the one on the right. He's actually holding his father if i'm not wrong. Well, i know that he is not the ideal guy but at least he'e something to look at. He has really nice features but i think he should go for a hair cut and earring removals! Those gigantic earring makes his earlopes so freakin big! (lucky thing he has his hair to cover it up)....Well, Kurt somehow has the european features and i think it fit's him really well. My mother said that he is Eurasian and Philipino mixed.. Well who cares man? I think it is almost a perfect combination for such a guy to have beautiful features, thus everything is being overlooked (like the big earrings etc....)

Oraity, this Saturday marks the 1st meeting of the family members! Can't wait till then. I mean, c'mon i haven't really met them in a few months already. To say i miss them would be a little too far-fetched, but i don't really hate them. Ever since the incident blew over, i didn't really put it on my mind...so i guess it's back to the "love u guys" season!!! Well, we'll see...:)

Moving on.....well i kinda miss Matiin already..can't believe he's gonna be gone for such a long period! Seriously, tht dude is a bro i'll miss...his rantings and other stuff!!! Well, enough abt this, he'll be back in a blink of an eye..So, this Sat we were supposed to have class 6j gathering..too bad i can't make it..coz of the party.....oh well, good things are so gonna come our way right now! I'll embrace the world whole-heartedly. :)

The Fingers,The Calling,The Dream.....

2009-12-02T02:46:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, a day that will always remind me of freaky stuff. Everything was good until it reached the late afternoon. My sis and i decided to make a usual trip to the library to replenish the stock of books. Usually, i wouldn't go into detail how our ride to WS was. But this is a must-say coz well, the incident happened on the bus. Bus 89 is what i could recalled from yesterday's experience...During half of the trip to WS, my sis gave me a calling..or rather a very shocked expression that felt really authentic. Initially, i thought she was somehow lying, but after a while, i found out that what she said really was true because i could see the expression on her face. Her face was pale white when she was relating the story to me. She said that she felt icy cold fingers linger along the nape of her back. About 3-4 of those finger tips touched her neck and slide across it making her feel uneasy throughout the bus ride. On listening to her, i didn't really feel anything myself but i could somehow relate to the story she was saying. The touch just really send shivers throughout her body and she could literally feel her body stiffen up when the "touch" occurred....I think i should just leave this to rest until it reached night.

We finally arrived at home and was watching some shows on TV....however, i heard my father calling my name and i even dragged my feet towards his room knowing what i had to do for him--off the light in his bedroom...The weird thing is, when i opened his room door, he seemed so soundly asleep. Like he has already been sleeping for quite some time....I found that really awkward but thought nth of it...

As i slowly got embraced by the warmth of sleep, i realised i was drifting away into dreamland. With the sudden thought, Nadia my cousin came crashing into my dream. I found myself in a really familiar dream abt a week ago. It was about the toilet situated at the end of the building. Nadia did tell me that the toilet was the cleanest but also the most haunted one around. Not really believing her, i decided to go into the toilet as i really needed 1 badly...i did what i had to do and so i needed the toilet roll. However, when tearing out the toilet paper from the roll, i found myself grabbing something round. It was 2 of it that laid in my hands, right in front of my very eyes! They were bloody eyeballs that were staring directly in my direction. And the words,"EMILY" was slowly forming on the toilet door in front of me.

This dream is something that i will,or can't ever forget. It was chilly and i hated it very much. I hope that this dream doesn't occur over and over again.

Christmas MAN!!!!

2009-11-28T06:00:00.000-08:00

Well Christmas is coming really soon and i can't wait! All around, the trees are all being put up and i'm feeling the atmosphere. Soon...soon, my tree will be up and i can't wait till it's being put up,up,up!!!...Below is a little song intro by Vfactory. A really cool boy band. Check it out...it's the first song on my playlist! Rock on to the music!!!

You got my attention when you make that move(ah ah)

can't help it coz i'm stuck like glue(why why)

am i the only one to see

girl i really want to get that get that

really should no doubt about it

who can do it like you do when u do

so hooked up on you like a tattoo

i'm serious about it

girl i really want to get that get that

really should no doubt abt it

I'm craving for you and just like a fool

theres no way i can stop stop stop desire

i'm craving for you and you know it too

theres no one that can top top top your smile

(girl you got me)

lovestruck(u gt me)

lovestruck(girl u gt me)

lovestruck oh oh oh oh(girl u gt me)

lovestruck (u gt me)

lovestruck(girl u gt me)

lovestruck oh oh oh oh

I,i,i love it when u give me tht smile

i've,i've been waiting for this a long time

my, my, my premonition is telling me try

girl i really want to get that get that

really should no doubt abt it

i have to give you credit for your style

and the way you rock tht dress is so wild

i got to give it up coz

girl i really want to get that get that

really should no doubt abt it

....chorus......

Yeah you got me like a puppet on a string

i can't stop it girl, you make my head spin

and just like a fool

....chorus.......

This is a really sexy song. The dance moves are so detailed and i'm trying to learn it. The guys in this videos are pretty cute too. One of them whose names are Asher Book is so damn freaking cute.

Boys and Girls...Same yet different

2009-11-27T04:37:00.000-08:00

The guys world

1)Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. they prefer neat and presentable girls.

2)Guys hate other flirts.

3)A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4)When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.

5)Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy
asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6)Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7)When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8)Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

9)Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10)Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11)When guys want to meet your parents. Let them. …….dont think so

12)Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking! but do not generalise

12)Guys cry!!!

13)Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

14)Guys can never dream and hope too much.

15)Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

16)When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

17)Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

18)Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands……yeh rite – watever.

19)Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

20)When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

21)When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow”. ……so true.

22)You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

23)Guys hate gays!

24)Guys love their moms.

25)A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

26)A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.
You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

27)If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

28)Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

29)Like Eve, girls are guysâ€™ weaknesses.

30)Guys are very open about themselves.

31)It’s good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

32)No guy is bad when he is courting

33)Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

34)Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

35)Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

36)If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice…….very true.

37)A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

38)A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

39)Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts. ……..sumtimes.

40)Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

41)Guys virtually brag about anything.

42)Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

43)Guys think too much.

44)Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

45)Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!……very true.

46)Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

47)When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

48)It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

49)You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

50)A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.

51)When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

52)Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

53)Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed P**** with their girlfriends…..sumtimes depends wen they want sumat.

54)When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

55)When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

56)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”……sumtimes.

57)Guys don’t really have final decisions.

58)When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

59)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him….very important.

60)If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

61)Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

62)Guys like femininity not feebleness.

63)Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

64)A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

65)A guy would waste his time over video games and football, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

66)Guys love girls who can cook or bake. ….they love u regardless.

67)Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!……true but only wen the guys are ready 2be settled down.

68)A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

69)A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

70)Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

71)Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

72)Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

73)Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

74)Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

75)Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

76)When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

77)Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

78)Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

79)Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

80)Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

81)Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

82)When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

83)When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

84)When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed by you or he’s criticizing you.

85)When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

86)If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

87)If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

88)Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

89)You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

90)If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

91)When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

92)You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

93)Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

94)Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

95)If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

96)Guys hate girls who overreact. ……sumtimes.

97)Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.

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Th Girls world

1. Girls hate it when guys say perverted things.

2. Girls like to be told that they're beautiful, rather than hot, pretty, cute, or sexy. It just gives more meaning.

3. Girls love to feel special, even though they might not show it.

4. Girls talk about EVERYTHING with their girlfriends. So that means, you're possibly 90% of their conversation. And believe me, trash talking takes up most of it, unless you're a Greek god, which you're not.

5. When girls are online, they want the guy to instant message them first, and they literally burn up inside when they're not messaged. Of course, when they are messaged, they play it all cool and go "oh, hey" as if they just discovered your message.

6. Girls have a thing for guys who dress GQ.

7. Girls love it when guys are over 6 feet.

8. Girls find it awfully attractive when guys wear just a white t-shirt and jeans and yet they happen to look awesome in it.

9. Remember. Sense of humor. GIRLS LOVE GUYS WHO CAN MAKE THEM LAUGH.

10. Girls hate guys with bad hygiene. So put on that deodorant and clip those nails!

11. Girls love guys who know how to dance.

12. Girls love it when a guy pulls them close by the waist.

13. Girls go crazy when a guy smells good.

14. Girls hate cocky guys.

15. Usually, when a girl is sarcastically mean to you, it means they're attracted to you, but are afraid that they'll be showing too much.

16. A kiss on the hand with the right timing can be a REAL TURN-ON.

17. Girls have a thing for guys who sport blazers with a destroyed tee underneath.

18. Girls have a thing for guys who have messy sex hair.

19. Some girls can think about their crushes for 18+ hours straight. No exaggeration.

20. When a guy says something really sentimental, girls will remember it forever.

21. The smallest gestures, the smallest stares, and the smallest statements could make a girl's year. No joke.

22. Girls get embarassed easily, even if guys don't know what the hell just happened.

23. Girls daydream about their crushes. Like getting married, going on dates, kissing, etc. They just don't show it.

24. Girls HATE players.

25. Guys who can sing are a major turn on.

26. Guitarists are sexy.

27. When a girl is upset and wants you to listen, she wants you to listen. Don't give her advice unless she asks for it.

28. When a girl is crying, she feels a lot safer if you pull her close and tell her that everything is going to be alright.

29. Girls love it when guys say their name.

30. Girls don't like short tempered guys.

31. Sometimes girls just wish that guys would notice when they get a new haircut or if they're wearing eyeliner.

32. When a girl calls you her loser or her dork, it usually means she's attracted to you.

33. Girls find it a lot more romantic if you just fall asleep with them holding them with your arms rather than having a night of hot kinky sex.

34. Girls will never say I love you unless you say it first. But that doesn't mean she doesn't want to scream it from the top of her lungs.

35. Girls love confidence.

36. Girls don't like rock-hard guys. They like to know that guys can have a sensitive side too.

37. There comes a time when girls have needs too. Enough said.

38. A girl will cry over you a lot more than you think.

39. A girl's wounds can last awhile. And when I say awhile, I mean awhile.

40. Girls hate guys who smell bad.

41. When a girl cooks for you, you know you mean a lot to her.

42. Girls don't like it when you think other women are hot and say it so.

43. Eyeliner is a girl's essential product. Don't ever try to take it away from her.

44. Girls hate it, absolutely HATE IT when guys don't keep their promises. It throws them over the top.

45. Every girl fantasizes about her wedding. Her dress, her flowers, her shoes, her hair. More than you think.

46. Girls hate it when other girls flirt. Yet they flirt themselves too. Ah, the beauty of irony.

47. Girls will save instant message conversations when they like a guy.

48. A phone call, a text message, or a single Hershey's kiss will mean A LOT MORE than a bouquet of flowers and a box of chocolates on her birthday.

49. Every girl think she's pretty in one way or another. They just won't admit it.

50. Girls are VERY SELF-CONSCIOUS when it comes to their looks. No makeup is a very sensitive topic to them. ;P

Updated Prom sevices

2009-11-25T03:41:00.000-08:00

The Prom

Well...these are the pictures before Prom. Theres so many more but it's all in Xiurong's camera. Thank god i washed out the photos for memories. Lol! Anyway, if i do get the copies from Xiurong, i'll definitely pass it to Zhafran and Iqmal. Well, they wanted a copy! Man, just looking at those photos, everyone looked really great the other day. Really memorable..something i think everyone will remember. As for now, everything has to be back to normal again...I have to go find some work to do. I can't really stay at home any longer. I may rot anytime soon! Lol....

So...today was pretty fun. Met up with Chris before heading off to TM to meet XR. It was our job hunting day! Fun nut exhausting man!!!!! However we only managed to fill one bloody form up! That was the only shop that somehow got to us. Well, i have been thinking it through and have decided to go for the recommended job. I mean what more could i ask for?

It fulfills almost everything!----1)$50 a day(mmm not bad..not bad at all!!!)

2)Five day work week

3)Office work?

C'mon....everything is great but too good. So i'll still go and try out. I hope i am up to the standard!!!!

Anyways. today, i was just telling my friends what i actually did the day b4 and guess what? They are freaking happy! They also wanna try out for the bridal thingie! I'm sooooo happy that at least XR share the same interest as me. So..we'll try and fit into our busy schedules this Sat at 1 for the fitting of dresses. (But hey, they haven't even chosen yet! Venue not known!!!!)....

......................................................................Chapter closed!........................................................................

Okay....recently theres gonna be so many things coming up! Work, Robyn's Christaning, Rebornding hair,Malacca Trip! Ohhhhhh myyyyy Goshhhhhhhhh.....i can't freaking wait for everything!!!!!! I need it now...hahaha...lol...alright..i think i shall end here for noe. Will keep updating...

Prom Night!

2009-11-24T02:35:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was the day when we--the Graduates,attended Prom! It was a wonderful experience and i loved every moment of it.Xiurong,Christal and me decided to meet up with the guys from our class first.Waited for quite some time till Gerald,Dzul ,Matiin Harriz appeared. Lucky thing Boon keong was already there but the funny thing was that Iqmal sent a text message asking where everyone was but in the end he hadn't even come yet!(to think i was still rushing). The food was great but too filling. It was too filling to the extend that it made me lose my appetite when it reached the 3rd course. Mmmm,not too good, coz i wasted alot of food. The hotel services rendered was really good. They served each and everyone of us in table 12 where we just stayed sitted to our seats. The whole cohort played games and really enjoyed ourselves. Then it was time for Prom King and Prom Queen. Well, Jez won Prom King! Good for him..he was such a cute dude who did everything he could do gain the liking of others in the level! I did cast him a vote! As for Prom Queen, the girls in table 12 all voted for Litong. But in the end she still didn't managed to win Prom Queen coz another girl from secondary 4E3 won the title! Well, i gotta say that she was the only one who was the most daring and cute "queen" there. Pretty sexy too and really cute anwsers she gave. Lol! She is really well liked by many ppl there and i guess that was how she won their votes. BTW, her name is Liyanna Adams( if i'm not wrong..coz i added her on FB)...Overall, she's a stunning beauty there up on stage!

The as the night went on further in, the music started playing and the DJ started spinning some cool tracks that belonged to our era..The whole of class 5NA were dancing on top of the stage lol! Or should i say not the whole class, it was only Jia le, Julia,Xiurong,Christal,Risq,Cameron,BoonKeong,Siddique,Erick and some other ppl form class 5NB...Lol, we were really having a good time la. The best! Adding on...we took so many pictures..some with our classmates and some with ppl from other class...Well the thing that really bewilder me the most is that i got to take picture with my "sexy eyes"!!!! OMG he's so damn freaking cute!!! When he had his picture taken he was so fierce looking lol! And there were many compliments yes, i have to thank my mother and sister who helped me make-up..My hair proudly my sister's "art work" and and make-up like the eye-liner and stuff is my Mother's "art work"...Lol! I loved everything they did for me and i thank them for everything! Thank you MUMMY and BEEPZ!~

Photos will most likely be updated at FB or maybe on my blog...? Have not decided yet!

The strange world

2009-11-16T02:02:00.000-08:00

I just realised over the past few days that a world can become really strange. People whom you know before, or rather at least you thought you knew, were not what they are. They are somewhat scheming and doesn't let you see what's deep down in their heart. I feel so pained to see the world actually ending up in a state. Or should i say, just the people whom i knew. K, i thought he was someone who was easy to connect with but i guess it isn't the case. Now i finally learned the truth that you should never trust a person, not even a little or this is what you get. Some people can basically smile through their teeth without even allowing you to see the true self. It's really scary to know that these ppl actually exist in our class. At the very least, CC always says it straight to my face and that's most important. Sometimes, it's perfectly easy to understand that when u hurt someone,there will be hatred somewhere...but what i don't understand is, i did nothing to these people and yet they are trying to be good on the surface which i totally detest. I can never forget their smug faces...well i only have this to say....all of them have become strangers.

Overwhelmed feelings.

2009-11-15T07:02:00.001-08:00

Today i just feel like blogging somehow. I can feel the mixed feelings i have within and this is not a good thing, really. I don't know how to put an end, a great solution the the existing problem. It's just too difficult for me. Whenever i try to make it work, it just backfires and in turn i get hurt. I didn't want to put anybody in this situation because i had no intentions of ruining other ppl's life. I just wanted to be left alone and not be a person who is hated. Is that too much to ask for? What did i do? After much deliberation, i finally realised that i really shouldn't have done a study group with him. I had swore never to get myself in any of this mess and i guess i am now in one. I detest this feeling and feel like a cruel bitch. I never wanted to hurt anyone but i guess this calls for desperate measures. Things are getting uglier by the day and this can never get any better. From what i know, i sincerely thanked the person who taught me for O's but there's nothing more to it. I can't reciprocate the same feelings and thus i resorted to hurting him. I know that this is really bad,despicable and any other words to describe my behaviour. But i couldn't think of any other solutions to let him down properly. I told him countless times that we were impossible, i guess i couldn't really break through to him. Really couldn't get the message across and now everything looks really terrible on the surface. And that is why i choose never to go into a relationship....everything just ends up in a really big tangle that i can't get myself out of. Well, i think that things are going to end soon and i hope it does. I'm sure it will. I can never fathom why anyone would want to have crushes or be in a relationship...it's really hurting to put the other person down.

On a brighter note, I decided to go for the last class BBQ. Well, i'm not sure if i'll enjoy but i'm still going anyway. To widen the friendship circle(tht's what my friend said). Anyway, it's being held this Friday,at Wahyuni's place. Let's just hope it'll be fun. Another thing to note, PROM...I can't believe i'm actually going for it as well. It was somewhat like a last minute decision planned decision. Weird but still we're going. Truth be told, only Christal,Xiurong and me are attending the Class BBQ and PROM. Very weird but we really wanted something to be etched in our memories forever. So at last, we made a decision....Let's just harbour the thought that we'll at least try to enjoy on that occasion!~~!

Random stuff i stumbled upon the internet

2009-11-07T04:59:00.000-08:00

Just because of who you are, you ruined my whole world. I need to be a normal girl, but you had to come waltzing in. You happen to appear in front of me whenever i wanna see you. Gosh, i don't want anything about you. I had long forgotten you, but once i saw your picture, feelings filled the spaces you onced held. I cried over you, but blaming me because i knew i was stupid to have fallen for you. It's the first time i've ever fallen in love, real deep love. Whenever i see you, i sigh and turn away. Do you know how i feel? Would you come? Must you be the perfect one,catered to me only? Why must you have what i need? I hate you enough to love you. I hate myself coz i simply just can't erase the memories of you. Whenever u are on my mind, i just start to hug myself tightly...bringing in every part of myself to stop the world from collapsing. Even though i am a whole, i still feel that a part of me is being torn apart. I can't take it anymore. I seriously hate how much i feel for you. I never wanted to say this but, I LOVE YOU.....Perhaps liking turned into love and i cannot comprehend how much i feel for you.

The Last Day

2009-09-13T01:00:00.000-07:00

Today marks the last day on com. I'm not gonna touch this com until after o levels. To fully concentrate, tht's what imma do right now. Giving it all i can....So to summarise the motivational workshop. I simply loved it. There are no words to describe it. It was great fun along with many learning experiences. We had three trainers, namely DANNY, BONG(tht's what we call him) and AMIN. Bong wasn't tht funny but he taught us alot of things. On the other hand, Danny and Amin were the jokers. The ppl who kept the class lively once again. They are the best trainers ever and i'm so glad that it wasn't Adam Khoo who took us for his training session. On the first day of the camp, we learned so much, something like having self-esteem and so on. Like we shouldn't care too much abt what others have to say about us. On the second day, we learned about how to reach our goal when we reached the age of 28.
Everything was going fine until Danny asked us a question that got us all thinking. "who are you?"....Silenced filled the room and he stared asking some ppl this question...i was included to...but i gave a very superficial answer that wasn't really substantiated. After hearing ppl's answer...he shouted!!! It was scary but what he said really touched my heart. He was right!! What was i doing when i thought that i was useless? If i could fight the battle yrs back, why do i think like that now...? Everyone in the room was practically crying their eyes out. But it was really a life changing experience. Then as it approached night,we played a game...ok not really a game. It was more of a test of endurance. Very tiring as we had to put our hands in a 90 degrees direction or higher...we can't go any lower than 90 degrees. It was extremely tough but i couldn't believe that i managed to do it. So from now, i won't look down on myself and i'll not be afraid to accept failures....i'll make it one day.

The Party

2009-09-07T03:43:00.000-07:00

Alright,so we attended aunty Francis's birthday party yesterday. It wasn't too bad. The food was good but apparently not too good for some others. Truth be told,there weren't any prawns or anything more expensive but seriously, it didn't matter to me coz i don't eat such stuff. Anyway, it was more of a small get together rather than a big party. There weren't many ppl, only a few friends of hers and a few family members that surrounded the birthday cake. Caught a glance of Nadia's bf,well---he looked really normal for the matter of fact. Not any hunk or hottie, just more of a plain dude. And he was a pain in the ass....kept snapping private shots of ppl,(inclding my sis and me),it was ridiculous although i loved the camera. But i hate to be taken when i'm eating? It's so unglam and i detest it. But it was not too bad though,maybe they wanted a more natural photo? The "adults" there were gossiping rather than having a fun time and so my siter and i decided to make a move to other places,kinda like "floaters", where we didn't fit in with those gossiping aunties/uncles.

Overall, the party was considered ok...not too bad. But nt very good either. Phots were being snap everywhere and we did take some vids...some of the photos and vids need a little viewer descretion...no i'm totally kidding..Check it out.

This are the three random pics by the pool. I guess it looks better durng the day,But i like the calmity of the night water. We were having second thoughts as to whether we wanted to take a dip in the pool, but after thinking it through carefully, we decided to forfeit as we hadn't brought X-tra clothing for the night.

Just some random dark phots...under the moon light.

Sitting doing the stunts...

Updated post

2009-09-04T01:17:00.000-07:00

Okay mummy's birthday cake. Mango is the flavour and there were some other fruits as well. Lovely taste to the cake and it was served with good quality of fresh whipped cream,not some cheap oily cream that taste yucky when it enters the mouth.

Okay, so anyway today was pretty busy but i'm not gonna say why. I had to do something...really personal and i'm aware that 11 ppl didn't attend sch..Ok, tht's bad but c'mon, i have to get an MC? That's not gonna happen anytime soon man. I'm not even sick,i only have to attend to things that i consider personal but maybe not for my teacher. Who cares anyway, i'm nt here to please anyone. If i'm really sick, i don't mind making a visit to the Doc's but too bad i'm not, so i'm not gonna waste my time getting a fake MC as i'm really honest.(Chey! Just kidding)

Out Out Out

2009-09-02T04:37:00.000-07:00

TODAY: ♥HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!♥
I love you so much and wish that you will always stay beautiful ok? Nvr mind if you didn't see this, as long as you're aware of what i wanted to tell you, then it's fine. I'll always be here for you no matter what happens. May everything go according to plan...and may God bless YOU!!!

Yesterday:

Decided to make a visit with Mummy to grandma's hse to see great-grandmother. She was good! Looking like her old self once again, and that's a good thing, something to put our minds at ease. She talked and waved her hand enthusiatically unlike before. I love her so much....It has been quite along time since i've seen her but she still looks great. As for my grandmother, i'm totally disappointed by what she hasn't done. She isn't fitted to be a grandmother. She doesn't act like one or even portray one. I can't believe she's mine! I'd always hope to have a grandmother who is willing to dote on us,or rather, me. But this is certainly not happening and i wish for my other grandmother to come back alive. But sad to say that she never will be back---for real. Perhaps she can only linger at the corners of our hearts. That's all i can hope for now--a nice dream of Mama Esther.

In the Night:

Went for a game of football-as per usual. Daniel came but not the two uncles-Uncle Edmund and Uncle Dennis. On the other hand, uncle alan came with the whole family... I couldn't believe that auntie Olivia would be there, and further more, voluntered to buy extra food for us.(so weird)...Aaron has changed alot,the way he speaks really kinda intimidates me. It's so low to the extent that i can somehow hear the vibrations going on around in his throat. As for Leann...ohh, she's so cute! Damn it...i love her so much and i realised that i love alot of ppl hah? Okay to carry on....Leann clung onto me like a kuala bear hanging on the tree and those soft palms swept against my skin. At that instance i felt like i was an elder sister carrying a baby sister. She was like my responsibily...so cute yet so naughty..she kept raising her hands and then laying them onto Aaron's body. Such a poor boy who doesn't make an effort to fight back. --A nickname for Leann would be..chan chan or something,it's supposingly the guy she likes...lol.But Aaron is a good brother to have,for not fighting back.

So i found out that the uncles and aunty are going to the party but Daniel most probably won't be going. He thinks that he's being used. Well he isn't the only one who thinks like that though. I shall not mention names. Anyway, we were talking abt Nadia's BF. She has one!!! Well okay, she's 18 already, and in Singapore, it's of a legal age to have a BF. So ya...this sunday we can see how good her Bf looks. But from the Fb picture, he doesn't look too good though.

Teacher's day

2009-08-31T04:25:00.000-07:00

Saw this cool stuff and decided to have my id card done. Image chef, i've tried it a few times before but i couldn't find the right one. Maybe this is perfect for me...as blogger is still under maintenence. I haven't been able to post pictures and so i have been making use of MSN's picture location to hold all the random shots i've taken, it may be on FB too.

Today is teacher's day and i went to sch as usual. I got nothing for the teachers( hey doesn't your gulity conscience play?). Just kidding! We watched a movie called "Freedom Writers" and i loved the show- to be truthful. While watching the movie, Marilyn and i were making some sort of inside joke-the teachers should be glad to have us as students,luckily we're not such a troublesome bunch like them! But this is for plainly laughters,nothing personal though. After everything,we had our class photo taken together by Elfy. He's a cool photo taker, i gotta say...It makes our photo look really alive?

Okay then there was school concert. The concert kinda sucks? I only liked the girl who played the piano very well. I thought that only she stood of from the crowd. The rest were like ranging from no good all the way to extremely sucks. Okay so i didn't perform, why am i saying such mean stuff? But c'mon man,can't the women speak? The dancers were so dead,there weren't any life in them as they performed and they looked like they were being forced to dance infront of a huge crowd, they didn't agree to. The singers? No words could describe what i heard. It was terrible execpt for one of the choir members, the rest weren't too memeorable,or rather, they were "memorable' in a bad way. For modern dance, there was this guy in it. He looks a little gay coz he was the only opposite sex in a whole bunch of little girls. I couldn't relate to what he was doing though, i'm thinking he was trying to do a headstand from the side? But it didn't too successful or pleasant. The crowds in the hall were giving them "claps", as in sarcastically. They didn't really appreciate everything and so did i. That includes the guys in my class...i saw a few of 'em clapping loudly but doing it in a sarcastic manner,not one a person would like to have received. But it was hilarious when they did it. It sent giggles to everyone sitting on the bench...

So today many ppl came back t visit the teachers...So may ah bengs...I hate the way thier fringe falls all over thier face. So ugly...and i meant for the guys. With that coloured fringe haning down the side of thier faces makes them look like some "chao ah beng"...Almost all of them have the same hairstlye...So queer and ugly. I mean,guys are supposed to have hairstyles that keep their faces visible. Like clear cut, features that are able to be seen. Not one eye being covered...That's so yucky. Martin and Jermaine came back as well, but they looked good. Really straight hair man,for martin...Oka, i think i'll end here as it is.

Purity VOW... Stay pure till 21!!!

2009-08-30T06:41:00.000-07:00

I can't believe i made a purity vow with my mum. I seriously feel that everything is so surreal to me. So if i don't go according to the vow, i have to hand all my money to mummy.(when i start working). I'm so not gonna fall in that trap. So i'll definitely stay pure until i'm 21 yrs old. How cool is that huh? Thank god mummy only put the purity vow to a minimum extend of 21 yrs old. But i'm sure that even though mummy didn't make such a vow, i would still stay pure,that is until i reach the age of 21 and found the man of my life. But all that is so not going to happen. At least not yet. I wanna concentrate on my studies and make it in life, i've come too far to let everything go down the drain now. So ya,but at the same time, i would make time for fun with anyone who purely wants fun...Friends, are such an important element in life,but they come and go as well. It's too difficult to have them by your side always. So we have to take things in our stride and live life like it's supposed to be lived! Okay weird sentence structure, but ya...read between the lines.

A fruitful day

2009-08-29T06:36:00.000-07:00

What a relaxing day i had. Daddy made chilli crab for lunch and it was splendid! I loved every bit of it, execpt for the small fact that i hadn't really savour the meat in my mouth. When i mean splendid, i meant the chilli source that came together with the crab meat. So i hate the taste of crabs,the way it lingers on the tip of my tougue really disgust me to the core. But when daddy made this dish, he was doing it for the best of my mother and sister. Thankfully he had taken into consideration about me, where he had to prepare side dishes like the fried nuggets and smashed potatoes,or known more as the BARGERDALE...(don't really know how to spell this,correct me if i'm worng,thanks!). So to carry on from where i stopped, even though i hated crabs, i still got to enjoy my lunch with other dishes+ the crab's source.

Okay,so i did a rather meaningful thing today. I actually went to the library wiht my sister in hope to find a good book. What? I can't believe i did that again...Everytime i go to the library, it just feels like i'm tagging along with my sister, but to show some reasonable actions as to why i'm actually there in the first place, i start to grab a book. Any book that falls under the horror or killings genre,i would've had my eyes set on them. But the weird thing today is, i really felt the need to borrow something that i wanted to read. Something that i would actually finish reading before the week comes to an end. Coz we usually make a weekly visit to the library every other saturdays. It's very queer that my sister can read 3 different books in just a week..i seriously take my hats off for her! As for me,reading has never taken a hold on me ever since i was young,so basically up til now, it still doesn't really grow inside me. I don't know what it is that gets ppl into reading so much, but today i finaaly figure out the answer myself. It's just like you're in anoter world when reading. The power of a story to suck somebody's thoughts in and just sweeps them into a whole new place. It's an eye-opener for me as i didn't think that i would grow to like reading. So i think that this is something for me to be proud of,something i can say in a way that it is meaningful.

As per usual,there were many ppl at the library. People studying and people reading.(DUH?) We made our way through the crowd and found the related books. As for me, i found----Grieve and A girls way to vampire."
I'm currently reading the first book and this is the one that i like the most. The one to capture my wild heart for books. Ironically, this book isn't abt ghost or killings, it's more about a mother being gone-suddenly. I can relate to this very book because i once i had similar dream to what is occuring in this story. The girl's mother had been gone somehow,but i haven't read until there yet. I'm sure i would be able to find out the real reason sooner or later. As for me, i dreamt that i had been abandoned by my mother in my dream. Not a plesant dream to recall but it comes back as fragments of memories after reading this book. It kinda feels like deja vu, which i'm thinking in my case, isn't a good thing or something to be remembered. A great book for a good start...i shall finish reading every tempting page in it and i swear to,i mean c'mon, i have to finish it right? I can do it...I hope this books doesn't get boring.

Well, this few nights have been rather sleepless for me. Pondering over the family matters. It's coming so soon,too soon for me to face them. It's terrible for me,but i know i have to get it over and done with. Just brace up and face them-Cherylann!!!. This coming Satuday is the day and everything will be over..Just meet the aunties like you've always been doing. Yeah, i think i will enjoy myself...i'm not gonna think too much about what they have to say abt me, because they don't own my life. But the thing is,can i do it? NOOOOOOO, what am i blabbering about? I have to do it....!!!! I will do it,i must do it!!!

Another topic,pretty random,TEACHER"S DAY huh? Well, i've not been going back to my previous primary school and so this year won't be an exception. No gifts for any of the ya? Yes..there isn't,i won't hide any of this. I mean,there isn't any teacher that is really good...but initially i was planning to give one to 'chen lao shi' but i guess i shall not do so. Not that i have change my perception of him, i just don't see the need to give anything. Okay tht be all..imma go watch my korean drama---BOYS OVER FLOWERS!!! I've been waiting so freaking long--(one week ok?!@#$%^$#@)

Most papers---Over

2009-08-28T04:29:00.000-07:00

Friday again!!!! That was a fast but hectic week once again. I had so many papers this week, english,MT, Maths,science...all i can say is that almost all the papers were done this week. I think i only missed out maths paper 2? Yeah, basically this week for me was so stressful and pathetic. I thought i was coping well with most of the subjects when i had to break out in RED sensitive skin...It itched real bad and i looked terrible. Even i, myself got a shock when i looked in the mirror. I felt so sad to see myself in such a state. Many ppl were glaring at the red and swollen skin....right on my forehead! I was extremely shy and didn't even dare get my lunch, therefore i skipped maths ppr 2 and mummy had taken time to bring me to the Doc. AWW, thank you so much MUMMY...without you there, i'm guessing i would feel bored,scared and alone....also having to cope with the "stares"....That's pretty bad. Of all places where the allergic reaction could occur, my face had to take the chance!!! Great....just great. But thankfully, i'm much better now. My sore throat is starting to subside and i have cured from the fever...Hah, i hope things are starting to get better?? Well i' sure it will.

Terrible Day

2009-08-23T03:38:00.000-07:00

Today was sucha terrible day. How can i possibly be sick during my Prelims? Especially when i am going to have an English Oral exam tmr...I hope i'm so not srewed man! Just praying that my throat don't give me any problems tmr. Ooh...what a terrible sore throat...OMG,i really hate it! I'm in such pain...Yesterday was a nightmare for me, couldn't sleep at all + i had to wake up twice coz of the nausea feeling. Not that i just had that feeling, but i literally vomitted. I hate it when i'm sick. Medication really sucks like hell. It just makes my whole mouth bitter and even til now, i can still feel the taste of cough mixture on the tip of my tougue. I cannot believe that i just allowed the day to pass by like that. Imma study l8tr in the night. I have to...hope that i will get well soon enough...

Ok pretty random stuff,i was listening to a few songs by VARSITY FANCLUB, as intro-ed by my sister. The songs are truly amazing.

1)Future love

2)Like i always do

3)Babysteps

4)Why not me

And so many more....

Like I Always Do

Hectic week

2009-08-21T05:26:00.000-07:00

OMG, finally it's a Friday...I've been waiting for this day for quite a long time. Well, i finally manage to restrain my self from logging onto the computer. Full five days of studying and studying. Had English and SS exams today and yesterday was Science Practical. Yesterday...was sucha "shameful" day for me. I couldn't find my sitting arrangement because the china girl was seated at my place and i was so nervous that i forgot to read the instructions for Physics practical. I decided to set up my own diagram as according to the picture,but apparently i did something so wrong tht kinda caught the teacher's attention.(i shall skip this part coz it's something u can nvr imagine i would do?!?!?)

After our practical, we were somehow detained in the music room. While we waited, my friends and i were deciding on the chalet that we were going to book soon. Well, this is like a substitution for the Prom Night. We decided to stay at a chalet, BBQ and play everything that was available. Hope everything goes according to plan.

Alright as for today...i guess it was partly my fault,or should i say yes..it is my fault....i didn't check the timetable and found myself in a similar situation like yesterday. I was nervous again when i had received the SS paper. Not that i hadn't study/revise for the test, but i could really use the recess time to do some revision for SS...Well, holding the SS paper really made me feel like raising my hands to re-confirm with the teacher, if i was sitting for the right paper....but in the end i had confirmed for myself and started to hate myself again...Why didn't i check the timetable???? So everything that i ahd studied for Venice came out, but i forgot everything as i was super nervous then. So i decided to do Healthcare. Something that i didn't really study for the exams but could understand and remember...also partly due to the notes i read from Julia earlier...Thx...

English was not too bad. But for speech, i'm not sure if i got it right-To bulit/Improvise? Which will it be...if it really is building of facilities,i'm so dead meat!!! I really dun wanna fail!!!! Aiyo..forget it, i already tried my best...and there's nothing i can do abt now..the paper is done and it shall end there...I'd better go study for my other topics...

What it feels like inside...

2009-08-15T06:19:00.000-07:00

I finally realised that you have hated us all along. Maybe you did nurse a grudge against us, it's just that you had no guts to admit it. I feel so betrayed and used. Now,to me you are nothing but a bcak-stabbing Bitch!!! Smearing our names--is that what you're made up of? I'm really taken aback by what you've done. It was grave hurt that you implanted in us orr rather,scarred on us. They may not feel hurt or upset as i do, but now i'm feeling nothing but hatred towards you. Never have i felt utter hatred towards someone like i do for you. I thought that we could let it lay rested under wraps as the time passes, but i guess everything doesn't go according to planned. Things change and people change as well. You're the perfect example, one that portrays a two-faced liar. You're making things look so damn obvious to the naked eyes of people who might know us. I'm too afraid to think or imagine what you might have done to gain "sympathy" from the crowd. Everything you have done or said really has taken a great effect! Well you have won "their" votes but it doesn't really bother any of us. The only thing that really gets on my nerves are the little actions you pull off behind our backs, making it seem like it's our freaking fault. All the freaking teachers have become so damn biased. Not that i would want to mention any names here. But it's obvious....I'm aware that you might not be reading this, but if you do, i would be honoured. I don't care about what you think of me, i'm just gonna do anything if you really cross that limit. I don't even care if things were to turn out ugly because i have no feelings for you anymore...I regard you as one Bitch from Japan that i will never forget! Not ever in this life of mine....all those ways you betrayed us. I get sick from the sight of you and only now things are starting to get worser, i may end up puking. You should be happy i'm not doing it on your face. I still can't figure out why you have so many complaint about us...If you were really unhappy with us, you should have told us...!!!So you hate the way we look? F**k U!!! Did you really think that we loved the way you look? I really regreted not listening to my mother. She has warned me about you but i still decided to forego her anyway. What a noop i am? But it's set, you cross another of my path, i'm taking you on!!!

What it feels like inside...

2009-08-15T04:06:00.001-07:00

Will be updated later in the night...

Tonight

2009-08-12T04:04:00.001-07:00

A song that was introduced my by sister. It really captivated my heart and therefore,i decided to hit the search button for this official video. Jay Sean-i think he is a mix of American and maybe Indian? But more of the bollywood kind...the fairer version. He's quite cute and this song really rocks. It's pretty sexy and it's pleasant to the ears,until you really pay full attention to the lyrics nearing the chorus and during the chorus. Well, if you have the time, do check it out and you may enjoy it...Anyway i've already posted the video so it'll save you time from doing all the unneccessary searches. Till then, enjoy viewing ppl. I'm out!!!

Breathe Slow...

2009-08-09T04:46:00.000-07:00

I'm running outta patience 'coz i can't believe what the hell i'm hearing..
& speaking of hell it don't compare to this heat that i am feeling..
I love you to much it shows, all my emotions go out of control..
Good for you, bad for me when i can hardly see from the tears that flow..

Can't forget to breathe slow, count from 1 to 10 with my eyes closed
'coz ladies taking in & get composure for i lose & get composure
Im going to breathe slow,
count from 1 to 10 with my eyes closed
coz ladies taking in & get composure ladies never lose composure

Not gonna lie or even try,
you've got my world spinning..
& i aint the one who shot the gun
coz that means you will be winning.. ohh yeee
I love you to much it shows,
all my emotions go out of control..
Good for you, bad for me when i can hardly see from the tears that flow..

Somebody better hold me back..
your lucky i know know how to act,
so lucky i aint gonna attack.
I'm being calm and cool but believe me you,
it's taking everything to just breathe breathe breatheee

Pardon ME!

2009-08-07T05:01:00.000-07:00

Maybe after looking at things from a different level,i found out that i couldn't feel your pain. I was kept in the dark for so long, only until now did i realise the level of pain u went thru. I'm sorry for anything i said tht got on your nerves. Pardon me, but if you feel otherwise u really should've have told me. I finally understood the true meaning of ignorance being a bliss.
I really should not have gone "there"...now all i'm feeling is more pain than ever. My heart aches even though we're not really related by blood. Because now i'm certain of one fact-i can nvr halp you....Maybe i've not been a good friend and that's probably the reason why i didn't feel ur actual burning pain. I'm sorry. Even so many days has passed me by, i can't differentiate the real you. Coz i don't even know whether you're wearing a real smile or just something you choose to hide behind. I really thought for the closest fact that i could relate to you but somehow things change and people change with time. In those previous days when we used to chat so happily, i could feel that everything was coming from within. Like i knew who u were. These days, some things really have taken a turn for the worst, but still, i hope that everything turns out to be better. I really don't wanna be feeeling like this, like a fool. I hope to share your burden but i'm guessing you won't even consider. So there it goes, everything is settled. I'll just be someone whom you can chat with on the surface but maybe not any deeper coz i certainly understand how you feel. I'm not fitted to be anywhere near you. That's sets it all...We'll leave it to rest.

The hidden Love-You'll nvr find Out

2009-08-04T05:05:00.000-07:00

Once Bitten,Twice Shy,

Never once thought that i would try,

But in the end, I did my part,

Furthermore, you didn't start...

It took too long for you to realise,

But evidently, all "those" were lies.

They cut me up,

Right through my heart,

Still, I felt we didn't part.

Didn't wanna let it go,

'Cause it was difficult to end the show.

Bleeding love what was i had,

Nothing else but our only pact.

Memories flowed through my mind,

Like a river did on a valley line.

It was the very last time that we ever met,

So never will it fade, those memories i had.

All you've given me was not only misery,

But also many moments of beautiful history.

Although it was meant to be,

We decided to try and break free,

Left our love carved on a tree,

That was what made you and me.

I'll never trade the times we shared,

For you and i, we both once had.

Burning my heart was what you did,

Cause up til now i feel the heat.

Loving you was what it took,

I risk my heart, for just that "look".

Managed to grin a bashful smile,

Even though it took a while.

I thought you understood me with all your heart,

It turned out that you didn't know me inside out.

The poem:Done by BeepZ and Salad!

Freaky FRIDAY

2009-07-31T07:09:00.000-07:00

...Freaky Friday...

Well,today was quite fun. For me,...we were late for school because we kinda woke up late. Not our kind of thing but we do have our reasons though. So I woke up as perusual today and then met my friends at abt 9++....Slowly strolled to school,apparently getting alot of attention as we made our way there. Ppl were glaring at us,but we didn't care...Finally reached the school,and went to the GO. That was where it sucked the most!We were being "handled" by Mr Tung! That blady "chee ko pek"! Seriously man,why does he have those eyes ah? It's really distracting. Well,then as for the norm,he started lecturing as agin...all the way for like abt 10 mons b4 releasing us. We nodded and agrred that it was our fault...blah,blah,blah! Then afterwhich ran all the way to the class. No not actually to the class...we were taking a breather along the corridor,when Gerald and Cameron saw us....Cameron told us that mr P didn't come but we didn't want take him for his words until we really saw it. Well,it turned out to be quite true though!

Okay,then i shall skip to the part where there was catalyst...For me,i really enjoyed myself...but something soooo terrible happened! We were supposed to be engaing in some kind of activity tht really wasn't our thing. But in the end Xiurong and me got involved....Lyn,Hweeli and Christal kinda got scolded by the teacher in charge... I really thought tht he was jokingly telling them to go to the GO(General Office)...But then they really went down...Some of the guys like Cameron, Gerald,Hariz,Dzul and Yi Jie also didn't find a partner...therefore they also had to go out of the class...But seriously,teacher was only joking with all them...Because after everything,he asked all of them to come in again. Apparently,my friends were no where in sight....then when school was released,i think they kinda left school....Well,Girls....if u r reading this,pls do calm down. Mr Ridzuan isn't that kind of teacher...he's a funny guy tht won't scold ppl ya? So....pls don't be angry...? And ya,XR..take care of yourself ya...

Titanic:The Overview

2009-07-25T05:10:00.000-07:00

Just yesterday,i found myself enthralled by the tragic-love story-Titanic. It's just such a heart-wrenching story,one that i'll always be captured by. A touching story indeed,a story that portrays the love between a couple,that proves to be real or rather true. Whatever the circumsatnces given,Rose loved Jack for who he is. Acceptance starts to fill the spaces between them.Besides true love being radiated in the story,there is also trust. The biggest factor but a small word with less than 10 letters,holding a significant meaning worth more than a thousand words. Rose trusted Jack with her life despite knowing that the ship was going to sink anytime soon.Yet,there was never once where she douted him,but instead believed every word he said.

Jack protected Rose with everything he could have done for the love of his life,including the part where he is ready to sacrifice his own life...Touched by his actions of love,Rose promised Jack tht she would nvr give up no matter what kind of hopeless situation she was caught in,because he was the one who thought her how to live every second of her precious life. Although realising tht they might just at any one time die, due to the heavy floods that swamped the ship,Jack fought hard enough to keep Rose alive. At the very least,Jack Dawson died a peaceful death in the end...Leaving Rose all alone physically but was mentally with her. Then,the most surprising moment that caught me once again....when she decided to change her surname to being part of a Dawson-Rose Dawson. I can imagine how much she loved him....now,she felt that he was already part of her and that she was being more and more like Jack...the brave "warrior".

Well,my sister has always been asking why i liked theis movie so much,but i somehow couldn't find the right words to say. Because deep down my heart,i knew that there wasn't any words to decribe it. It's not that i'm one of those romantic type out there,but i'm really surprise that movie makers are able to produce such a show filled with thrilling love,so strong,that will uphold it's place,until the very day either one leaves the Earth....Even though it was a movie tht was being filmed yrs ago,but it still turly amazes me....

Shitty Blogiing System!

2009-07-24T03:53:00.000-07:00

OMG....there's something really wrong abt the blogging systom man. I tried many times and still can't find a way to upload pictures.....And FYI,this is only for a preview thingie. When will this blogging systom come back alive? I really wanna post things...if really cannot post anything,i think i might as well use what Marilyn is using now-the Wordpress...Hope it doesn't cock up somehow....

Some pictures...

2009-07-19T01:27:00.000-07:00

Just some randomn pictures....

Ya,i was going thru the song website and found this sound really nice. It's called over you,by Jordyn taylor. Very sweet a song,and not really reccomemdable to ppl who listens to hard-metal.

Class outing,Group bonding

2009-07-17T06:54:00.000-07:00

Picture(left to right):Lyn,Chris,XR

Well today was the class outing and actually it turned out to be ok. The Harry Porter's show was not too bad afterall. Initially,i didn't think it was nice but after watching it,it felt alright! The show,maybe rated a 3/5? Becoz,they just end the show off in a blink of an eye.....kinda weird but i guess it was reserve for the nxt part of the show...

So anyway,back to where i was supposed to start.After sch,XR,Lyn,Chris and I took a walk to LP and bought our light lunch. Then at home i was getting ready and i had to use the toilet together with my sis man...coz she was also going out today.

Met Chris at 2+ near the bus stop but we were kinda late. Fortunately we still had enough time to buy the titbis and stuff b4 Lyn could arrive. Then afterwhich Xr,Lyn,Chris and I went to take some pictures at the neoprint shop. Man,it has been soooo long since we took tht stuff ~! Yes, we finally returned to the old times. Okk,then off to Ehub! and met our class there. Mr O was like wearing the same thing la....but it still looks kinda fresh on him,only thing he loked a little larthargic. Then we waited and waited and waited for HL but she nvr showed up! Hey hey,just kidding,she came late. But tht was becoz she was"sending" her guy friend off! Hahhahaha,no offence,i hope she doesn't read this post. K then we were like checking out her eyes^_^...? She did put"very little" Mascara and Eye liner...it was sooooooo little tht it was so damn visible?!?! LOL,but it looked v-nice on her. Made her eyes look v-big(altough her eyes r big enough)>k then entered the theater later then the class blah blahblah......

After the show,we went to eat KFC and gues what? MR O was so kind to help us pay....tht was what HS said la....but dunno whether must pay back on monday a not? So ya,then the whole class wanted to go play Bowling... but me and the girls already had plans made b4 so we decided to pull out. We split and off we went to WS again to tae neoprint but only this time was with HL. Anyway,i had to get back first but the girls were still waitng for Claire...i think? Should be. Ok tht kinda summarises my whole day.......Update some other time!

See,hiding again?...we can see u Marilyn!

Hey chio Bu ah....nice eyes!

They r doing the edition of photos....but they didn't know i took this! Hahaha

Embarrassing Moments...

2009-07-16T04:58:00.000-07:00

Today was considered by far the most embarrassing day of my entire life. First thing in the morning and i saw something i shouldn't have. Just as we were done with playing badminton,Hweeli and i decided to take a rest by the stage and so we walked there leaving our rackets in the basket near the stage. I did tell Hweeli to go to the fan that was in between the curtains so tht we could do some fanning,but apparently she didn't hear me so i was walking alone and didn't even notice it. Then as i was getting ready to go near the fan,i saw this guy (frm my class,obviously),like kinda stripping off his top! At that instance,i was like WTH? Then i kept apologising and turned away.....I could feel my whole face literally turning red but i couldn't control it though. I mean,c'mon man,how could i have ever know tht he would be standing behind those thick,red curtains,changing? So i can't be blame actually.....

Then the 2nd incident happened when i was playing water with Hweeli....i kinda got her all wet and i think she is angry with me. She chased me all the way to the class and wanted to spill the water back at me....i was running like a crazy women and all my classmates were looking at me with the"OMG...what is she doing?"-look! Damn embarrassed right then and didn't know where to put my face! But i'm glad everything's over. Anyways,did the English ten yr series in a pique of an anger coz of something....but now i'm feeling better...

So ya,today the A'maths small test was being returned and it sucked like hell....But it's expected actually....i don't really know how to prove ∆s....so ya tht's probably the reason why? But 1 guy passed though,Gerald did. So smart la....whatever! Anyway,i can't believe Ahem would fail?!?! But anyways i'm not someone who goes around teasing ppl so tht's it.

Today is basically the day where my friends and i found out something and proved it to be right! That gurl really has fallen hard and she doesn't even know it. She thinks of herself as being popular now? I can't believe she actually has the cheek to say tht....she is just making a fool out of herself and still thinks tht whatever she's doing is right....I once commented tht i would not bother abt anything tht has got to do with her...but well,today she really crossed my path and i felt like i had to do something...

KK, tmr's the class outing and i was planning not to go. But everything has been organised and it'd be too much of a hassle too pull ou right now. So ya,i'll just go and then make use of the time!Anyway,i'll be going to take some pictures at the neoprint shop with XR they all! That's probably the most fun part?

Cuts and Bruises....

2009-07-13T05:26:00.000-07:00

Wow,i really hate this day! Early in the morning and i cut myself deep into the skin! Blood came oozing out and then there's a sharp pain tugging at my nerves. At least now it's better,after putting the plaster on but still, there's like some dried blood around the corners. It's so freaking pain!!!! Then the second scenario,just as i was abt to take my plate out for dinner....i nearly dropped it but in the end,managed to save the plate! Or else I'd be guilty of breaking yet another innocent bowl!!!! There goes my wrist man....Darn,it's so painful now!!!! I can feel it whenever i talk abt it. Maybe i should just stop!!!!

I just realised that I'm no different from a battered child! Haha,look at this bruise...i mean,it was a bruise initially but after which,this "Balokoo" appeared! KK,i really hope that all this swellings will go down..

Catching up with the good old timez!

2009-07-12T06:14:00.000-07:00

I'm now currently catching up with my friend,Pei ling...it's been so long since we last met or talked.... I can't believe we are now chatting on MSN....Even though it has been so long,it's doesn't really feel like there is an air of awkwardness between us....It's really fun speaking to her. Like i have so many things to say. Maybe the topic on finding our primary school friends on FB helped get us into the atmosphere.....but still, ya....i really enjoyed talking to her. It's like there's no pressure at all. Coz,seriously,i really don't like talking to ppl whom i feel pressurized with. So ya....

Neaways,today was a really fun day out with my family once again. But this time round,mummy could not make it. Her legs were killing her so she decided to stay and rest at home. I bought so many things....do the description tmr....time is out from here!!!

Continue tmr.......

Random Piczzz

2009-07-11T05:56:00.000-07:00

Anyways....a Saturday and so i thought i'd rather spent my time at granny's place...IT' been a pretty long time since i saw her. But ya..my sister didn't go,but she met us after tht at TM....We had luch at KFC and this incident kinda happened at the wrong time....There was this lady serving us but my mum and i couldn't understand a single shit she was saying...She was from India,i think...actually i'm pretty sure of it coz her accent kinda betrayed her looks. But in the end,we got our orders but like there was repetition during our conversaton with her.

So we bought some clothes today and i totally loved it. I really enjoyed myself alot.....too bad Daddy couldn't make it....tht's bad.But at least,he would be joining us for lunch tmr and he'll definetly be at church too....so tha't like 2 thumbs up ^___^ Hahahaha.....

Okay here is just some photos i took.....

Just found it pretty amazing...like under those lightings and stuff. And ya,abt my blog,i've nt really written the profile part...will update tmr or something....

Sorry for the slant of phots....

WednesDay~

Chinese O'level Oral....was pretty okay. Initially,i thought the teachers were gonna be fierce or something.But then i realised that they were easy ppl to talk to. I enjoy everything tht happened in the hall during that talk...i had with the examiners. I couldn't believe they asked which country i come from? And then when i'm done with my explaination,they were still doubtful...HUH? But at last i got them to believe me...

The things that make your mind go crazy

2009-07-07T04:54:00.000-07:00

Dear PaPa and MaMa,

I know i promised not to log onto the computer....yet another sin...I'm aware. But how am i suppose to go through the night knowing the amount of pain that my mum has gone through earlier in the day??? All those words that came right out from my mother's mouth,the way that she was speaking as though i was brought back to the scene where it all occurred! The tears that she shed,really cut right through my heart like a thousand blade of knifes.... I really couldn't believe that my own grandfather would say such hurtful words to my mother. She was like the apple of his eyes!! How could all of this happen just like that? With a blink of an eye??? It's really so surreal to me. So incredulous until I'm feeling a sense of shock running through my body.... Just yesterday,i was the most happiest teenage girl on earth,knowing that my grandfather was there for me to count on....but who knows? His character just flipped a 180 degrees...just 1 day i was not there by my mother's side,and all these unpleasant stuff came pouring out? Did he really hated seeing us? Why...? I still questioned myself? What did we do to deserve such treatment from him??? I thought we were getting on fine.It felt so good to know that there was another person loving you....but now! Everything is taken away............*-*.............I really have no feelings now....not for anybody besides my family members and closest friends.... But what if one day they were to betray me and tell me that they didn't enjoy my company? Or rather,they hated the sight of me in their lives? Today,i finally learned that people can transition into someone you won't really know in the end. They can hurt you to the extend that it will definitely leave a scar on your fragile heart that can barely be taken out. However,u have to learn to stay strong and not be swayed by other ppl's words....Mummy,if u r reading this post,don't worry ok? Even if the world hates you, Daddy,Nicole and I will always be loving you til the end of time.....U have us and we have u....U r the best mother to me that no-one can ever replace or take away....Thank you mummy,i love you so much....pls don't fear,coz I'll be here to guide you through your darkest days in life. Let me be your sunshine and make you laugh okay? I can also be your shelter when it starts to pour.....and your listening ear whenever u need one. ^-*

Anyway,i have MT oral exam tmr and i'm totally freaking out right now....I really hope that the examiners would both be girls...then at least i won't be distracted..LOLs. Okay,today was a pretty busy day for me. Bad,...i rushed my way into packing my school bag early in the morning and it wasn't a good idea...coz when i reached school,i realised that i had packed my bag for the Monday timetable...That was basically y i forgot to bring my Chinese textbook and we were like issued two ice creams sticks...during Chinese lessons.I mean,c'mon man,we're in secondary 5 already! Why that teacher have to do those childish stuff? Whatever...then it was onto A'maths.We had a small A'maths test with 4 questions and i really didn't know how to answer the last part of the questions--...ya,then we had REP test...that one was okay,some questions can attempt, some really crack my brain also cannot find the answer. Lastly,the killa test was on it's way...Maths mock Paper 222222??? WTH man,sit for 2hrs30mins...can die man,inside the class....so freaking hot!!!! Felt a sharp pain on my small back and my backside was numb la....The paper was difficult man..What to expect? There,i can totally hear what MR P is gonna say now...

After all the test,i decided to chill with Marilyn and Hweeli.Walked all the way to SPC...Aiyo,hot again....sweat,sweat,sweat...then itch,itch,itch? Whole body red again...It's really like the norm these days...Bought Solero and finally cooled ourselves down....for just a short while....then i walked all the way back home again....-_- Like nothing to do...haha,no actually i really enjoyed the "walk"..we talked about so many stuff and about the"ah-hem"....Hweeli and Marilyn will know!!! I think i'll end here ....

Karaoke session...

2009-06-28T03:56:00.000-07:00

Sunday and we didn't attend church once again. Man,i feel like the ultimate evil girl who does bad stuff...although i'm not! Okay so today my family came over. Aunty Sylvia and Daniel....wow,their voices were superb...Daniel sounded like the lead singer in 3 Doors Down. There's this strengh in his voice that is wonderfully mesmerising. Gentleness was also present in some part of his voice. It seemed to trail off and then come back on through the mircro phone. But yet,it sounded very soothing to the ears.

As for Aunty Sylvia...i could say that she has the voice man! It sounded really rich...like full of enthusiasm. Even after she left my house,i could still hear her voice. Kinda like,it lingers somewhere in my ear drums. From her voice, i could actually tell that she is sweet and sensetive to the feelings of ppl that are around her. She's a beautiful women...who really care for us wholeheartedly...Thank u for everything.

Okay,initially in this post,i wanted to state something so that it can help remind me not to blog anymore. Not that i'll be deleting this blog or something,but because my O'level is arriving really soon. I really wanna do my best and not regret it...if i could use the time i use on the computer,i could actually do extra studies for my up coming exams.Okay,anyway...school is going to re-open like tmr....i'm aware that there'll be many things to brush up on,but i'm sure that i can do it if i put my heart and soul into everything that i do. And,there's P.E this tuesday.....totally freaking me out right now. Gonna take weight! Damn,should have thought of this from the start of my holidays..but well,whatever happens, i'm only left with only a few months to go...so what the heck??? Oh well,so i think i should end here. I'll carry on blogging right after my O's...and i do hope i'll do well! Must put it into actions,cannot talk talk only!!!

Uncle David's Stall

2009-06-25T04:35:00.000-07:00

Uncle David's Stall

Today i woke up really late. As late as 12.45? Oohh...that felt kinda nice....no headaches whatsoever. Didn't accompany mummy to gram's...well,i think i could have a day's break right? Anyway,to make up,I'll be going tmr so ya....Yeah,where was i? Oh ya,i woke up then i went straight onto the television Watched this pretty nice show.."Because i said so"...This was the show that practically got me through the late morning daze....Ate my breakfast while doing so....After which,i decided to "lend" a helping hand to Daddy....coz he suddenly had the urge to clear the storeroom....whoa...there's so many things man! And only til now,i finally understand why dad is always complaining about the amount of bags we have. Well,when he cleared the storeroom today,i was practically shocked myself! I couldn't believe it....Okay onto the Siglap part...Well,daddy received a call from one of his frends....and apparently his name was called David...So as per usual,we had to address him as "Uncle" .Then he started bringing out his speciality--BEEF NOODLES(dried style). Well,he said that the way he cooked his noodles were like in the teochew style,hence the dryness. But the meat was totally tender. It just exploded when it entered my mouth. Not forgetting the kway teow? Mmm,let's c,it's pretty soft but yet chewy...just right for everything. No wonder his stall has long queues...That uncle is so polite man...he assured us that whenever we wanted to eat his nood;es,we could simply drop by. He even went to the extend and said that we could bring our friends over for a meal or 2? Well,some ppl can be so good when some are like arseholes....Okay,each individual is different so no one could say anything....Right,i think i'm gonna stop here!

♥Love 2 Insatiable♥

2nd day MC

2009-06-24T04:46:00.000-07:00

2nd day MC

I rested for a whole day today at my granny's house. I was incredibly a good girl to actually finish up my English assignments. At first,i thought i was gonna knock out when i reach there but who knows...i wasn't feeling tired at all. So there i was,trying my best to finish up Eng and Geo only to find out that i had misplaced the Geo paper! So ya,i couldn't do Geo,but instead i managed to finish up Eng....

I kinda just realise that i had forgotten to take my medication on time..no wonder i still feel a little bit ---not so good....! But as compared to the other day,i'm much better.

Alright...talking abt my trip today on the bus....i saw this guy whom i think is a Thai...and he freaking looks like Cristiano Ronaldo man! No kidding at all,coz he was sitted right next to me and i could see his side view. No actually,practially everyday i see him on the bus on my way to my grandmother's house. And he totaally looks like the football player...He was playing his PSP and it kinda made alot of noise though.Coz he caught the attention of other passengers on the same bus. And that handphone ringtone of his!?!!? Eh..pls ! Tune it to the lowest man...totally filled the whole bus with that sound!!! Unbearable sound.....and i can't believe it rang twice in a row??? Ok whatever...

So here are some random pics i took due to boredom-ness...but hey,at least i still had the stuff done okay?

Who would leave his money and go out of the house huh? Well,in this case i have to say that it would be my uncle!!!! Although this is not real money....can only be used in arcade ok.

Okay,uncle is freaking rich la...damn! Two phones? Why will he need so many for what??

See...my English assignments!!!

{Love 2 Insatiable}

Quick Updates

2009-06-23T03:26:00.000-07:00

The Doc's

I didn't actually go for lessons today. You could say i was down with the flu....Pretty much a high percent in getting the *ahem*...*ahem*!!! Well,let's not mention it ya. So initially i woke up all dressed proper for school lessons...but after realising that daddy was gonna make a trip down to the clinic,i thought ah..what the heck man? Just follow him and get the needed medication. Felt really nausea deep down after heavy meals....That was not good..at all!!! Juz after having a conversation with 2 of my classmates yesterday,i ran myself to the toilet and puked everything out.(Is it becoz of the new book i had been reading, that actually is really acting up inside of me?) Well,back to the topic.... As i was saying,it is extremely chaotic at the clinic. We had to get our temperatures taken b4 stepping into the clinic....wearing a mask was sucha hassle! Firstly,it messed up my hair....and i hated it A-L-O-T!!!!! But luckily my face was hidden behind the mask,so no one could actually tell who i was with the messy hair though. Ya,but still,i don't like it when my hair is all over the place. Anyway,the consultation today was pretty fast....as we were in the "fever,cough and flu" section, we could meet the doctor really fast. Can u imagine,we went to the Doc's at 7.40,but managed to come home before 9.30....that was considered fast,at least for me!So ya,took medicine and stuff. Then the school actually ringed my house up....well,they were only doing their part in informing me that there was gonna be a maths remedial on Thursday. I seriously don't think i would be able to make it on Thursday...But at least i guess i would be coming tmr??? Should be!!! Okay,I'm gonna end here....

Savin Me: Nickleback

2009-06-21T06:13:00.000-07:00

Savin me

Prison gates won't open up for me

On these hands and knees I'm crawlin

'Oh, I reach for you

Well I'm terrified of these four walls

These iron bars can't hold my soul in

All I need is you

Come please I'm callin

'And oh I scream for you

Hurry I'm fallin’

I'm fallin

---Chorus---

'Show me what it's like

To be the last one standing

And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be

Say it for me

Say it to me

And I'll leave this life behind me

Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me

With these broken wings I'm fallin'

And all I see is you

These city walls ain't got no love for me

I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story

And oh I scream for you

Come please I'm callin

'And all I need from you

Hurry I'm fallin' I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like

To be the last one standing

And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be

Say it for me

Say it to me

And I'll leave this life behind me

Say it if it's worth saving me

Hurry I'm fallin’.....

Day before-- Father's day---

2009-06-20T05:11:00.000-07:00

My Goals

It's pretty weird that i'm here to blog again. After so long....i'm finally back. At least with the hope of something to write once more. So during this holidays....i was very busy helping out at my grandmother's place....and to think i actually love it? Okay,i have been doing some thinking during this June holi's.....i should really catch up on stuff....be it work or other aspects.

Well,i've been thinking this through and have decided to embark on something which i've done so a few yrs back..Yes,it's gonna be really exhausting. Sometimes to the extent that it gets really frustrating...but c'mon,it's gonna be so worth it...I really want that "thing"....and i'm so gonna make it in the end...!!! I know i will be able to....if i give it my best shot.

I've seen so many ppl saying things that were pretty impossible to achieve but yet in the end,still was able to...They are like the ultimate best. At least they have proven their point to others that they can really make it out there in the world.I really admire that!!!

Father's day,or should i say Daddy's Day???

Well,this day is really special to me and tht special day is just tmr? I will definitely get daddy a present ASAP...but for now,i have to go do up a card. Call me old fashion or whatever,i do this whenever there's this special occasion. Ok...so i gonna stop now and go towards my goal....

Thank u...

2009-06-15T05:41:00.000-07:00

Thanks for being a great sister....ur the best...someone whom i can place my trust in.....

Yae..i finally get to really help mummy take care of lao ma...and i can't believe that I'm enjoying it.She is really someone i love and would be prepared to take care of her whenever my help is needed. Good....alright....again took some photos...i kinda had nothing to do...so ya...I seriously can't help that I'm like so ........well think whatever u like coz this is what makes me up...

Great-grandmother....here i come!

2009-06-12T06:40:00.000-07:00

All-self taken photos....:

Okay,today i was once again at my grandmother's house...To help look after my great-grandmother. Well,i finally understand what mummy meant when she said that "adults" shit and piss is really pungent! I got the smell today and i totally felt like vomiting....I couldn't take it man...so ya,my sis and i kinda burrowed 2 cdz from uncle. I seriously dunno why i have the sudden cravng for old movies like"Norbit" and "the Tuxedo"...weird but ya...luckily uncle allowed us to borrow the discs...I just realised that i have not returned another cd to him..good thing he isn't aware of it or else i don't know what he'll be thinking?

Great-grandmother was so cute today...I was rather surprised when i heard her call my sister's name....sounds weird but it's like a typical old lady's voice,calling on her great-grandchildren. So today was still not so bad,only thing was that Bryan was not there. At the very least,i got to see him yesterday. He became so freaking thin la...although he has changed for the worst,to me he will always be my good cousin....let's hope that he can turn back though...?!

Right,today...i was going crazy again....taking photos of myself once again...and i state once again...this is my blog,whatever i post is my freaking problem...if u have any comments pls leave this place...remember,i didn't put force on u to come and view this blog.....so ya....This applies to ZAINUL!!!! Get your facts right first b4 tagging stuff on my tag-board!

Photos frm the day b4...

2009-06-10T05:33:00.000-07:00

So act cute man!!! I feel wierd!!!

We sure looked shocked man

Middle fingers...???

OMG? tHE TWIST Sign

I look like some horny girl? Coz there was this pole....so i kinda hung onto it...looks funny though

I wanna eat u ...

Fun day...seriously fun!

2009-06-09T04:57:00.000-07:00

Okay....today was like plain fun....Went to school early this morning for Geo classes. Actually,i missed like an hour before going for the full thing. I forgot abt it...no,we waited for each other....But luckily miss Lim didn't scold us. She's sucha good person? OMG? Didn't go for science practical as i wasn't feeling too good though..so ya,i skipped it...What? I'm not gonna take MC or anything,coz i do have the medicine at home,plus there is so many things going on at the clinics due to the H1N1 virus....So ya,I'd skip tht.

We then made our way quickly to LP to get our food and drinks then decided to crash at Lyn's place for a little while. In the end,it ended quite long. We did so many things there man,watched the Razortooth..and it was damn disgusting la. Rated gore for tht movie...and i totally realised that i had just eaten a shrimp dumpling!! Like wth? I felt like vomiting everything out. I could feel my stomach churning and i could taste the shrimp inside of me.....But i managed to overcome tht feeling in the end. Oh ya,thx for the sumptuous lunch--Lyn! It was great...!!!

Took some crazy snapshots over the comp...it was really nice and cool...but i don;t have the photos with me right now....even the 1 video i don't even have. Well,i guess I'll have lyn sent it to us tmr or something...Then I'll definitely post it up.....So we were also watching HOUSE's videos and some other crazy clips from the Internet--of course...? The they passed by this really hot person la......I freaking don't know his name man! Damn....I'm so gonna find his name....he acts in New Moon as one of the wolf packs..by the name of Paul!!!! Oh Paul....????!!!

I only know his name is Alex something,like fill in the banks pls(______)??? And like he's so young but guess what? He's freakin married man! But well, good looking guys are usually taken up fast man....can't help it!!! K i'll stop posting!

Okay,this beauty here is Lee Hyo Ri...cool girl and really pretty man....Check out her videos if u have the time...1)U go girl

2)anystar

3)anymotion....

Planning to post..Yet not going to!

2009-06-06T04:30:00.000-07:00

This is going to be a short post. I took some photos when i was at my GM's house today. But i'm kinda lazy to post the photos...it's quite a hassle though. Maybe i'll put the natural photos up tmr...Okay,i still have yet to finish up my holiday homework and stuff. All the maths and sciences..inclusive of English are practically draining the daylights outta me. But welll,what to expect during this holi's when it's like our O's this yr? Of course homework and more homework!!! This is totally needless to mention....Alrighty,i think i'll stop here for now...gtg to something i've always wanted to do. Oh ya,i really have to thank samantha for teaching me this stuff! When i've succeded,i'll tell u Sam...Thx once again!

Taste of the 2nd LiFe...

2009-06-05T05:21:00.000-07:00

Although i didn't go for any classes today,i still had a tired day. Why? Because i had to make a trip down to my grandma's house....to actually go and see my GGM...I miss her so much and finally today was the day where i made my visits. I think this will be going on for quite a while as she is now staying with my grandparents. I had to awake at about 6.15...Well,to me that was much earlier than on the usual days....Too tiring for me,but i enjoyed my time there. There were no words to describe the feelings i had within. I saw GGM and she somehow looked stunning. Although she was considered a little old,she had a pair of glittering BLUE eyes...They weren't dark blue or something,but rather a little on the turquoise side. We were saying things to each other but weren't really sure if she could understand what we were saying. Then mummy did a little test on her...It was pretty weird,but she was so cute. She could really answer the questions man. But like in the "old" lady manner. Where she spoke "blurry" words...(still,it was understandable,so not too much of a problem.)

Okay, my sis and mum played WII with uncle but hell man,i was too tired to do anything. Maybe i needed some time to have a taste of this second life....I kept sleeping my way thru. And ya,did i mention the "BIG" breakfast we had? Man,whatever i'll still mention it anyway...Damn,it was a very "big" breakfast indeed. Mummy thought that uncle would not be buying anything,so mum had decided to buy kway teow and chee cheong fan...but who knows? By the time we arrived there,uncle had bought some light snaks like pancakes and "bak chok mee"...Whoa,we were really full from eating all of this...But it was done through proportions where i shared half of the "mee" with my sister....Thank God i had shared a portion,if not i think i would be the one going to the toilet every now and then...(hope u have a *fast fast* recovery-_MUMMY_?!?!--(stands for MUMMY)

Pretty good of Gong GOng to Dar us DOI...(in portugese)...It was like he returned to his old self...and i really love him..Thank u! So had mama changed--for the Better?http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/better?? Very weird mmmmm,but it suited me well....Keep staying like this....

English Oral

2009-06-02T04:41:00.000-07:00

Today i had my English Oral. Initially,i was pretty afraid. My nerves were so tense...i didn't know why. It was only the prelims but yet i felt so stressed. Like i really needed to perform well for this exam, -this time round. Maybe i should feel like this for O'levels in order to excel and do my best huh? Okay, Nicole's friend-Natasha was there. There were other ppl too-incharge of the oral thingie...taking of time and stuff. But i really had to thank Natasha as she was really sweet to ask which teacher i wanted...Very cute..Thanks anyways...I kinda know my scores for the oral and hopefully i did get whatever they had seen written on the paper. Natasha also saw two of the other guys' score-from my class. I'll not state the name,but maybe the initials would be good? They are G and Z...Funny right? I didn't know why in the world she went to glance at their scores..But anyways,they passed with a score of 28....The highest in the whole level was supposedly register 6...(whoever u r...Kudos to u!) I think so(maybe not inclusive of 5B)...

Okay,yesterday was rather---How to put it? Well anyways,i had my O'levels chinese. I have to say that the paper was rated in between. Some questions were easy,but some were difficult...I dunno how to actually put it...But ya,the paper was done and if i could get an A1/A2...how good that would be? But ya,i shall awake from this dream...

Back to blog

2009-05-30T05:53:00.000-07:00

Back to blog and it seems that i have stopped blogging for quite a number of days. Anyways,i attended chinese intensive on wednesday all alone and it felt weird but ya. Christal didn't come and hweeli wasn't feeling well. Then on thursday,also went for intensive classes but with my friends.....This was considered the last time for me in intensive classes-also the very last time when i'll be able to see "sexy" eyes again. I mean like this guy,he has the most beautiful eyes in the world man. Although there are some flaws on his face, his eyes were so very mesmerising. The other day when he was turning back to pass me a paper,i was caught by his serene expressions.

Okay,enough abt that...onto Friday,i had chemistry practical. I had to admit that it was the first time since i had enjoyed such a practical. I have always hated science practical,especially chem...but weirdly,i liked this one.

Okay summary of all photos....started to snap photos again...And i do what i like. I don't need any permissions or comments. But whatever i can't stop u all from saying anything. But FYI,i'm aware that the person who spammed my tagboard is a retarded retainer. Carry on doing what u are doing and u'll never go far...Heard of Karma? Oh wait,i don't think so....cause u suck at English---i think? No i'm definitely sure of it..chop chop!!! No doubt abt that.